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[crickets chirping]
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[car approaching]
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[car stops]
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[Malcolm] ♪ I need a friend ♪
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♪ Troubled mind ♪
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♪ One thin dime ♪
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♪ I need a friend ♪
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[sighs]
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[sighs]
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["Down and Out in New York City"
by James Brown playing loudly on speakers]
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[singing along] ♪ Hey, man ♪
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♪ I was born in New York City
On a Monday ♪
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[snapping fingers]
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♪ It seems I was out shining shoes
'Bout two to noon ♪
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♪ All the fat cats in the bad hats… ♪
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-♪ Doin' me a real big favor ♪
-You look good tonight, baby.
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[Marie] What?
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[singing along] ♪ In the bad hats ♪
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♪ Laying it on real good ♪
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♪ Here's a dime, boy… ♪
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I said you look beautiful tonight.
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I can't hear you!
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[Malcolm] I said
you look beautiful tonight, baby!
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-[Marie] Thank you.
-♪ When the cold wind comes ♪
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-♪ It live at New York City ♪
-[Malcolm] Baby!
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♪ And the street's no place to be
But there you are ♪
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♪ So you try hard, or you die hard ♪
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♪ No one really gives a good damn ♪
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♪ You try hard, and you die hard ♪
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♪ No one gives a damn ♪
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♪ Here's a dime, boy
Give me a shine, boy ♪
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♪ Down and out in New York City ♪
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♪ Ain't no way to be
But where can you go? ♪
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♪ When you're down and out
In New York City ♪
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♪ I'm never, never
Never gonna get that way again ♪
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♪ Ow! ♪
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♪ No, no, no
No, no, not me ♪
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[Malcolm singing along]
♪ When you need a friend ♪
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♪ Need to have a… ♪
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♪ When you want a friend ♪
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[Malcolm] ♪ Ow! ♪
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♪ Gonna get myself together
In the morning ♪
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♪ Gonna leave it all like one bad dream ♪
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♪ All the fat cats in the bad hats
Doing me a real big favor ♪
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♪ Got the fat cats in the bad hats ♪
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[Malcolm] Whoo!
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♪ Laying it on real good ♪
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♪ Here's a dime, boy ♪
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♪ Give me a shine, boy… ♪
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Whoo!
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I'm a little wavy. But life is good.
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-Because we fucking did it!
-[Marie] Did what?
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I wrote and directed and premiered a movie
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that knocked the audience
the fuck out tonight.
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Did you see that?
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-Did you see that audience?
-[Marie] Hmm.
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-Baby, did you see that audience?
-Mm-hmm.
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I said, did you see the audience?
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Man, I delivered a fucking knockout punch.
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The last eight minutes straight,
they were sobbing
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and when the credits hit,
it was like a fucking bomb.
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[imitates explosion]
It's like a bomb went off.
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[Malcolm grunts]
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It feels good.
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[laughing] I cannot believe this is real.
Baby, I can't believe this is real.
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Afterwards, I talked to six critics.
Six or seven of 'em.
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They was all on a nigga.
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You feel me?
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The white guy from Variety loved it.
The white guy from IndieWire loved it.
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The white woman
from the LA Times, she really loved it.
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She kept saying
that I'm the next Spike Lee,
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the next Barry Jenkins,
the next John Singleton.
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I just looked at her, like,
"What about William Wyler?"
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You could tell, for three whole seconds,
she was like, "Was William Wyler Black?"
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[scoffs] Sh-yeah!
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[chuckles] And then she realized,
"Oh… shit. That's racist too."
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She got flushed. Face red.
That shit had me dying.
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Marie, that was hilarious.
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And she kept stumbling
over her words, saying shit like,
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[imitating woman]
"The movie was so emotional."
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"I-- Malcolm, I couldn't even
think straight. Oh, my God, Malcolm."
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"Just, just, Malcolm. Malcolm."
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"Oh."
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[chuckles]
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Yeah, it was like a super white moment.
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What was interesting, though,
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was that you can tell that
because I'm Black, as the director,
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and the woman
is a Black lead, stars in the film,
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she's already trying to frame it
through a political lens,
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when in reality, it's a film
about a girl trying to get clean.
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Now, are there certain obstacles,
because she's a Black woman?
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I mean, hell yeah.
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Right? That's reality, too,
but it's not a film about race.
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No. It's about shame, it's about guilt,
and how that shit is inescapable.
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And it annoys me
that so many of these journalists
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can't help but to flex
their college education.
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Malcolm, you have a college education.
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Yeah, but I'm not academic, baby.
I'm not elitist about my shit.
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I'm not trying to make a film
for the three people
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in my media studies class that I respect.
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-I am a filmmaker.
-Hmm.
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-Right?
-Mm-hmm.
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-Am I a filmmaker, baby? That's right.
-Mm-hmm.
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And I'm going to be part of the larger
conversation about filmmaking
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without always having
some white-ass writer
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making it about race
'cause it's fucking convenient.
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You know, I could see--
I could see the reviews now.
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It goes something like this.
This is how they be writin' and shit.
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[affectedly] "This film
is an acute study of the horrors…"
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They like to use words like that.
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"…the horrors of systemic racism
in this mental healthcare industry."
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[scoffs]
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Instead of it being a commercial film
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about a drug-addicted girl
trying to get her shit together.
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I mean, these people,
these fucking people are so pedantic.
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-[R&B song playing softly]
-They are. I mean, we get it.
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You're smart. We get it.
You're woke. We get it.
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Let us, us artists,
have some fucking fun with the shit.
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Let us have fun with the art.
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Malcolm, you're writing
the Angela Davis biopic right now.
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Yeah, but that's different.
That's different.
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I'm choosing to make a film
that's fundamentally political,
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but not everything I do
is political because I'm Black.
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Yeah, I think Angela Davis
would disagree with you.
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-[laughing] She-- She would, huh?
-Mm-hmm.
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For real, though, like,
if I decide to make…
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a fucking LEGO movie,
it's not because I want to tell a story
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about how the building blocks
of the American empire was slave labor.
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I may just wanna make a LEGO movie.
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-You don't wanna make a LEGO movie.
-[chuckles] Yeah, that's true.
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But that LEGO movie was fire.
That shit was heat! Right?
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And you've never gotten
a good review in your life.
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-Damn, baby, that's… You right, though.
-[both laugh]
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And you're complaining about reviews
that haven't yet been written.
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Right again.
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So, stop. Makes you sound like an asshole.
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Yeah.
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But shit,
you know what I'm saying, though.
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Yeah, but save it for another day.
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[Malcolm] Yeah.
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You're complaining
about the white girl from LA Times
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'cause she gave you
a bad review that one time.
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Aw, she didn't just give a bad review.
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She gave a dumb-ass review.
There is a difference.
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Malcolm, you won. Okay?
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She's comparing you
to Spike Lee and Barry Jenkins.
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But she's such a mediocre-ass writer.
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Fine, you're not
the next Spike Lee or Barry Jenkins.
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-Doubt she knows who William Wyler is.
-I don't know William Wyler.
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-Is it ready, babe?
-Mm-hmm.
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Here comes the mac and cheese.
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-You don't know who William Wyler is?
-No.
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Oh, man.
He did The Best Years of Our Lives.
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Sh-- Shit was heat. Ben-Hur?
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He's one of the most
versatile filmmakers of all time.
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I mean, Wuthering Heights.
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Heads-up.
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Roman Holiday.
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Yeah, some classics.
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It's different, though.
You don't work in film.
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You're right, Malcolm, I don't.
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["Selfish" by Little Simz playing]
♪ Guess I'm in denial ♪
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♪ Maybe I'm wrong, you're right ♪
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♪ Heard it all my life… ♪
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Did you have fun tonight?
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-[Marie] It was nice.
-[chuckles]
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"Nice."
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The entire night while I was talking to
all those sweet, smiling, rich people who,
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a month ago, wouldn't give me the time
of day, I just kept looking at you.
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And I think to myself, "God, you're the
most gorgeous creature on planet Earth."
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[kisses] And the sexiest too.
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I mean, there's nobody sexier.
Even Anthony said it.
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[Marie] Hmm.
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[kisses] I mean, not in a bad way.
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-[kisses] In a positive way.
-Hmm.
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[jazz music playing]
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[Malcolm breathing heavily and kissing]
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When I'd see you…
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with your cranberry and soda…
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smiling, chopping it up…
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And I'd think,
"God, how fucking lucky am I?"
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-I couldn't wait to get you home.
-Aww, that's so sweet.
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Hold your cute little ass and kiss it.
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Tell you that I love you.
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I love you, Marie.
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-Do you want salted or unsalted butter?
-[softly] I'll just have you.
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[kissing]
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What was that?
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-What?
-That was a fake-ass smile.
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-No, it wasn't.
-Swear to God, it was.
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[Marie] No, it wasn't. It was nothing.
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Bullshit, I can fucking read you.
I know when nothing is something.
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Well, maybe you can't read me.
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No, I can read you.
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-I haven't eaten all night.
-That's not what this is.
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It's 1:00 in the morning.
Can we eat and go to sleep?
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Please, Marie.
I really don't wanna fight tonight.
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Neither do I.
That is why I'm making you mac and cheese.
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So you are angry.
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No.
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-Was it the thing that Anthony said?
-No.
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-The joke about you being a model?
-No.
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Wouldn't take it seriously.
He's old and from a totally different era.
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I didn't take it personally.
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-Promise?
-Promise.
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-Was it Taylor?
-No.
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-You sure?
-Yes.
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-I know you get weird around Taylor.
-I do not get weird around Taylor.
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-You get meek.
-"Meek"? Huh, really?
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-Well, you don't talk a lot.
-Well, that's different from being meek.
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-I just mean--
-What?
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Meek implies that I'm shy or small.
That she's the queen of fucking England.
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-I didn't mean it like that. I meant--
-What?
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What?
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-She's a movie star.
-Hmm.
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-She's about to become a movie star.
-Don't jinx her, Malcolm.
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I have nothing nice to say to Taylor,
so I don't talk to Taylor.
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-It has nothing to do with being meek.
-It's just… she notices.
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Really?
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-Really.
-How do you know?
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-'Cause I just do.
-Really?
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She sees how you are with other people.
You're talkative. You're funny.
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What can I say? I'm personable.
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[chuckles] Right.
Which is what makes her insecure.
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What does? Other fucking
human beings with personalities?
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[chuckles] No. The fact that
you're not yourself and she sees it.
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[blows]
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She'll survive.
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[Malcolm] Hmm.
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So why you angry?
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[jazz music becomes louder]
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Marie, you're angry.
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Marie, what you angry about?
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Marie.
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-Marie?
-[dish clatters]
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Marie!
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Marie.
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Marie, talk to me.
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I promise you, it's not a good idea.
Let's just talk tomorrow.
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00:13:04,625 --> 00:13:06,958
-But you're upset with me.
-It's not that big of a deal.
241
00:13:07,041 --> 00:13:08,666
I can't go to bed knowing you're angry.
242
00:13:08,750 --> 00:13:10,833
Malcolm, I promise you,
243
00:13:10,916 --> 00:13:13,458
nothing productive
is going to be said tonight.
244
00:13:13,541 --> 00:13:16,000
-How do you know?
-Because I know you.
245
00:13:16,083 --> 00:13:17,833
-What does that mean?
-And I love you.
246
00:13:17,916 --> 00:13:18,958
What does that mean?
247
00:13:19,041 --> 00:13:22,333
It means you are literally incapable
of de-escalating a situation
248
00:13:22,416 --> 00:13:25,125
unless it's work-related.
Even then, it's 50-50.
249
00:13:25,208 --> 00:13:28,208
[blows raspberry] Why is it
that anytime anything good happens,
250
00:13:28,291 --> 00:13:29,833
you have to find something, anything,
251
00:13:29,916 --> 00:13:33,083
the most minor fucking detail
to harp on, to make ugly,
252
00:13:33,166 --> 00:13:36,458
to ensure that there's no reason
to fucking celebrate.
253
00:13:36,541 --> 00:13:38,541
-Really? You wanna go there?
-Yes.
254
00:13:38,625 --> 00:13:41,000
-Okay.
-All right, then. What is it?
255
00:13:41,083 --> 00:13:44,000
-Your speech, Malcolm.
-Oh, give me a break.
256
00:13:44,083 --> 00:13:45,291
You're outside of your mind.
257
00:13:45,375 --> 00:13:48,875
When I said you find the most minor detail
to make it ugly, I meant it.
258
00:13:48,958 --> 00:13:52,958
[grunts] You forgot to thank me, Malcolm.
It's not a minor detail. That's a big one.
259
00:13:53,041 --> 00:13:55,000
But I've thanked you
a million times before.
260
00:13:55,083 --> 00:13:57,250
You know that I'm thankful.
You know I'm appreciative.
261
00:13:57,333 --> 00:14:00,166
You know I made a mistake,
so why turn it into something more?
262
00:14:00,250 --> 00:14:02,666
Because it is more.
263
00:14:02,750 --> 00:14:03,583
What?
264
00:14:03,666 --> 00:14:05,666
It's our entire fucking
relationship in a nutshell.
265
00:14:05,750 --> 00:14:08,083
-Oh, you can't be serious.
-I'm dead serious.
266
00:14:08,166 --> 00:14:09,791
-You're psychotic.
-You're hyperbolic.
267
00:14:09,875 --> 00:14:11,166
I'm not. It's psychotic to think
268
00:14:11,250 --> 00:14:13,458
that forgetting to thank you
is symbolic of anything
269
00:14:13,541 --> 00:14:16,125
other than me legitimately
forgetting to fucking thank you.
270
00:14:16,208 --> 00:14:18,041
You thanked 112 fucking people tonight.
271
00:14:18,125 --> 00:14:21,291
You thanked your mother, your gaffer,
your agents, your third grade teacher,
272
00:14:21,375 --> 00:14:24,166
the usher at the theater when you were 12
and saw whatever the fuck.
273
00:14:24,250 --> 00:14:26,041
-Didn't thank the usher.
-You know what I mean.
274
00:14:26,125 --> 00:14:29,166
You don't have to be sarcastic,
petty and obnoxious about the shit.
275
00:14:29,250 --> 00:14:30,833
I'm sorry. I forgot to thank you.
276
00:14:30,916 --> 00:14:32,750
I am genuinely sorry,
277
00:14:32,833 --> 00:14:36,500
which is why I apologized to you
a thousand times during the movie.
278
00:14:36,583 --> 00:14:38,750
I felt so guilty,
I couldn't concentrate on the movie.
279
00:14:38,833 --> 00:14:40,958
Huh. That's a shame.
You've only seen it 7,000 times.
280
00:14:41,041 --> 00:14:44,166
Every time I'd lean over and said,
"I'm sorry," you said it was fine.
281
00:14:44,250 --> 00:14:46,333
You squeezed my hand and said it was fine.
282
00:14:46,416 --> 00:14:48,916
You said, "I love you.
Don't worry. It's fine."
283
00:14:52,125 --> 00:14:54,666
Well, Malcolm, I changed my mind.
284
00:14:56,833 --> 00:14:58,291
How can you just change your mind?
285
00:14:58,375 --> 00:15:00,541
Honestly, it's pretty fucking easy.
286
00:15:00,625 --> 00:15:02,541
That doesn't seem a little crazy to you?
287
00:15:03,708 --> 00:15:05,208
-Nope.
-It doesn't?
288
00:15:05,291 --> 00:15:07,000
-Nope.
-Why?
289
00:15:07,083 --> 00:15:09,666
Well, because when I was
in the theater, it didn't matter.
290
00:15:09,750 --> 00:15:11,541
Wasn't that big of a deal. It was fine.
291
00:15:11,625 --> 00:15:13,875
Until the after-party,
when every single person,
292
00:15:13,958 --> 00:15:17,416
from your mother to Taylor,
kept coming up to me and going,
293
00:15:17,500 --> 00:15:20,375
"You know, I bet you're probably
a little bit upset right now
294
00:15:20,458 --> 00:15:24,125
because he forgot to thank you,
but you know how much he depends on you."
295
00:15:24,208 --> 00:15:25,666
[Malcolm] Taylor said that?
296
00:15:25,750 --> 00:15:29,000
-Yeah. She told me not to read into it.
-What the hell does that mean?
297
00:15:29,083 --> 00:15:31,458
Funny you should say that.
That's the exact thought I had.
298
00:15:31,541 --> 00:15:33,125
-I didn't cheat on you.
-I didn't ask.
299
00:15:33,208 --> 00:15:34,208
-Just saying--
-Didn't ask.
300
00:15:34,291 --> 00:15:36,583
-Well, I'm just saying--
-I didn't ask.
301
00:15:36,666 --> 00:15:39,125
["Yum Yum (Gimme Some)"
by The Fatback Band playing]
302
00:15:39,208 --> 00:15:40,125
[pops lips]
303
00:15:41,666 --> 00:15:44,375
It's not just about
you forgetting to thank me, Malcolm.
304
00:15:44,458 --> 00:15:45,625
It's about how you see me.
305
00:15:45,708 --> 00:15:48,916
And how you view my contribution,
not just to this relationship,
306
00:15:49,000 --> 00:15:50,458
but to your work.
307
00:15:50,541 --> 00:15:53,791
Specifically in a movie
you made about my life.
308
00:15:54,666 --> 00:15:56,750
♪ My name is Yum Yum
Gimme some ♪
309
00:15:56,833 --> 00:15:59,041
♪ My name is Yum Yum
Gimme some ♪
310
00:15:59,125 --> 00:16:01,125
♪ My name is Yum Yum
Gimme some ♪
311
00:16:01,875 --> 00:16:04,708
-[door slams shut]
-♪ And it better be good, better be good ♪
312
00:16:04,791 --> 00:16:07,083
♪ And it better be good
Real good… ♪
313
00:16:07,166 --> 00:16:08,916
[song slowly fades out]
314
00:16:11,208 --> 00:16:13,208
[crickets chirping]
315
00:16:45,666 --> 00:16:46,666
[sighs]
316
00:16:53,208 --> 00:16:54,125
[blows]
317
00:17:00,291 --> 00:17:01,666
[shouting] You know, Marie…
318
00:17:03,375 --> 00:17:04,958
you are genuinely…
319
00:17:05,750 --> 00:17:06,916
unstable.
320
00:17:13,291 --> 00:17:14,208
[grunts softly]
321
00:17:15,541 --> 00:17:16,750
I'm not kidding!
322
00:17:18,958 --> 00:17:19,833
Hmm.
323
00:17:20,958 --> 00:17:21,791
Mmm.
324
00:17:22,291 --> 00:17:25,916
I'm actually concerned
for your mental well-being!
325
00:17:26,000 --> 00:17:28,000
-[fork scraping]
-Hmm. [clears throat]
326
00:17:29,375 --> 00:17:30,208
Hmm.
327
00:17:30,291 --> 00:17:31,375
[chair scraping]
328
00:17:33,791 --> 00:17:35,791
Obviously, there are certain similarities.
329
00:17:36,708 --> 00:17:38,708
But Imani's not based on you.
330
00:17:38,791 --> 00:17:41,083
[spoon tapping on pot]
331
00:17:41,666 --> 00:17:43,416
You're fucking delusional!
332
00:17:47,625 --> 00:17:48,625
[sighs]
333
00:17:52,875 --> 00:17:56,083
In what fucking universe
is Imani's character based on you?
334
00:17:56,666 --> 00:17:57,500
Really?
335
00:17:58,250 --> 00:18:01,500
Are you actually yelling and belittling me
from across this house
336
00:18:01,583 --> 00:18:04,250
because you are too busy
eating mac and cheese?
337
00:18:04,333 --> 00:18:06,000
-What?
-[imitates Malcolm] "What?"
338
00:18:06,833 --> 00:18:08,416
-I'm not.
-Don't fucking lie!
339
00:18:08,500 --> 00:18:10,666
-You literally just got seconds.
-No, I didn't.
340
00:18:10,750 --> 00:18:12,125
Do you know how disturbing it is
341
00:18:12,208 --> 00:18:14,166
that you can compartmentalize
to such a degree
342
00:18:14,250 --> 00:18:16,500
that you can abuse me
while eating mac and cheese?
343
00:18:16,583 --> 00:18:18,625
-Abuse you?
-Mac and cheese I fucking made you.
344
00:18:18,708 --> 00:18:20,375
-Abuse you?
-Verbally abuse me.
345
00:18:20,458 --> 00:18:22,875
Thanks for the clarification.
It's kind of an important one.
346
00:18:22,958 --> 00:18:24,791
But verbally abuse you? Get out of here.
347
00:18:24,875 --> 00:18:27,916
If you're gonna treat me
like an insane person and call me crazy,
348
00:18:28,000 --> 00:18:31,708
the least you could do is do it without
casually eating macaroni and cheese.
349
00:18:31,791 --> 00:18:33,166
How does that work for you?
350
00:18:33,250 --> 00:18:36,041
What does that sound like
in your fucking brain?
351
00:18:36,125 --> 00:18:38,666
"What a cunt! Mmm.
This macaroni and cheese is delicious."
352
00:18:38,750 --> 00:18:40,541
"What a cunt. I wonder if there's more."
353
00:18:40,625 --> 00:18:43,583
"What a cunt. If I could direct
commercials for Kraft, I would."
354
00:18:43,666 --> 00:18:44,708
Say whatever you want.
355
00:18:44,791 --> 00:18:47,958
Get pissed off I didn't thank you, Anthony
said that joke about you being a model,
356
00:18:48,041 --> 00:18:50,791
that Taylor said
whatever the fuck Taylor said--
357
00:18:50,875 --> 00:18:52,833
-It was mean.
-Well, she's an actor.
358
00:18:52,916 --> 00:18:55,500
All night I had to watch you two
smile and take pictures together.
359
00:18:55,583 --> 00:18:58,208
-She's the lead in my film!
-I know. I don't care.
360
00:18:58,291 --> 00:18:59,958
It's my job to make her feel comfortable.
361
00:19:00,041 --> 00:19:01,791
-Not at my expense.
-Actually, it is.
362
00:19:01,875 --> 00:19:03,916
Despite how you fucking
feel about it, it is my job.
363
00:19:04,000 --> 00:19:06,000
-You'd never forget to thank her.
-Jesus Christ!
364
00:19:06,083 --> 00:19:08,041
-You wouldn't.
-'Cause she's psychotic.
365
00:19:08,125 --> 00:19:09,750
No, because she would flip the fuck out
366
00:19:09,833 --> 00:19:13,875
and spend the night making you pay for it
so you'd never let that shit happen again.
367
00:19:13,958 --> 00:19:15,833
You're saying you're not nuts enough.
368
00:19:15,916 --> 00:19:18,333
No. What I'm saying is
you spend your entire life
369
00:19:18,416 --> 00:19:22,166
catering to the feelings and the whims
of literally everyone but me.
370
00:19:22,958 --> 00:19:26,458
Agents, producers, crew members, actors,
371
00:19:26,541 --> 00:19:29,625
fucking fictional characters
get more respect
372
00:19:29,708 --> 00:19:31,500
and empathy from you than I do.
373
00:19:32,875 --> 00:19:36,333
And… [scoffs] That's what's so odd
about this whole fucking situation,
374
00:19:36,416 --> 00:19:39,166
because I get it.
Taylor is wonderful in the film.
375
00:19:39,250 --> 00:19:41,166
But when you get up there
and you talk about
376
00:19:41,250 --> 00:19:43,625
her ability to breathe life
into the character of Imani
377
00:19:43,708 --> 00:19:49,083
without ever mentioning that if
I didn't live my life, she wouldn't exist,
378
00:19:49,166 --> 00:19:50,541
it's kind of fucking weird.
379
00:19:50,625 --> 00:19:52,083
Imani is not based on you.
380
00:19:52,166 --> 00:19:55,375
She's a 20-year-old drug addict trying
to get clean. Just a fucking coincidence?
381
00:19:55,458 --> 00:19:57,875
Obviously, you getting clean
was a part of the inspiration.
382
00:19:57,958 --> 00:19:59,000
-At 20?
-Yes.
383
00:19:59,083 --> 00:20:01,000
And you provide genuine insight into that.
384
00:20:01,083 --> 00:20:03,375
What that was like.
But Imani is not based on you.
385
00:20:03,458 --> 00:20:06,416
It's an amalgamation
of different things, a bunch of things.
386
00:20:06,500 --> 00:20:07,500
Who?
387
00:20:09,708 --> 00:20:10,541
People!
388
00:20:10,625 --> 00:20:12,083
What people?
389
00:20:13,375 --> 00:20:15,250
A lot of different people.
390
00:20:15,958 --> 00:20:17,208
[Marie] Mmm.
391
00:20:17,291 --> 00:20:19,500
-Like my cousin. Rick, for one.
-Okay.
392
00:20:19,583 --> 00:20:22,041
-A lot of different people and things.
-Your cousin.
393
00:20:25,333 --> 00:20:27,833
-[sighs]
-You know what, Malcolm?
394
00:20:29,958 --> 00:20:33,833
I feel like once you know someone is there
for you and once you know they love you,
395
00:20:34,666 --> 00:20:36,666
you never actually think of them again.
396
00:20:37,916 --> 00:20:39,125
That's not true.
397
00:20:39,958 --> 00:20:42,833
It's not until you're about to lose
someone that you pay attention.
398
00:20:43,916 --> 00:20:45,875
-Is that what this is?
-What?
399
00:20:45,958 --> 00:20:47,791
Is what you're threatening…
400
00:20:47,875 --> 00:20:50,000
if I don't apologize,
I'm going to lose you?
401
00:20:50,708 --> 00:20:52,250
I'm not looking for an apology.
402
00:20:52,333 --> 00:20:55,125
-What do you want? A screenplay credit?
-Don't be cruel.
403
00:20:55,208 --> 00:20:57,625
I'm serious.
I know we talk for hours about work.
404
00:20:57,708 --> 00:21:00,458
Is it so much of a nuisance
that you'd like compensation?
405
00:21:00,541 --> 00:21:03,166
I had a draft of the script
before you ever came into my life.
406
00:21:04,041 --> 00:21:06,291
It's not about credit.
I don't want fucking credit.
407
00:21:06,375 --> 00:21:08,625
Well, what is it, Marie? What do you want?
408
00:21:11,291 --> 00:21:12,625
The film is beautiful.
409
00:21:13,958 --> 00:21:15,041
I'm proud of you.
410
00:21:15,125 --> 00:21:18,083
Took forever to make and it was tough,
but I have one question.
411
00:21:18,166 --> 00:21:22,916
Do you think that the movie would be
as good as it is if we weren't together?
412
00:21:28,541 --> 00:21:29,375
No.
413
00:21:33,375 --> 00:21:35,500
And that's all I wish you would have said.
414
00:21:44,041 --> 00:21:44,875
Great.
415
00:21:46,208 --> 00:21:47,875
Are we no longer fighting?
416
00:21:51,625 --> 00:21:52,625
That depends.
417
00:21:54,083 --> 00:21:55,083
On what?
418
00:21:55,166 --> 00:21:57,375
On whether you can manage
to not say something hurtful
419
00:21:57,458 --> 00:21:58,666
for the rest of the night.
420
00:22:02,416 --> 00:22:03,791
I mean, I'm not that bad.
421
00:22:03,875 --> 00:22:04,916
[inhales sharply]
422
00:22:05,000 --> 00:22:06,875
Fuck you aren't. [sighs]
423
00:22:11,791 --> 00:22:12,791
Can I kiss you?
424
00:22:13,583 --> 00:22:14,583
No.
425
00:22:17,250 --> 00:22:20,125
-Are you sure?
-Mm-hmm.
426
00:22:22,125 --> 00:22:23,166
[Malcolm sighs]
427
00:22:23,250 --> 00:22:26,125
But I really, really wanna kiss you.
428
00:22:28,375 --> 00:22:29,541
[softly] I don't care.
429
00:22:40,708 --> 00:22:42,291
Just don't take me for granted.
430
00:22:45,333 --> 00:22:46,333
I don't.
431
00:22:52,958 --> 00:22:53,958
You did.
432
00:22:56,541 --> 00:22:57,541
I'm sorry.
433
00:23:05,791 --> 00:23:06,791
You can kiss me now.
434
00:23:07,541 --> 00:23:09,000
-[softly] Yes!
-[chuckles softly]
435
00:23:18,375 --> 00:23:20,708
I'm the only person who tells you
you're being an asshole
436
00:23:20,791 --> 00:23:22,250
when you're being an asshole.
437
00:23:24,416 --> 00:23:25,416
[Malcolm] I know.
438
00:23:27,500 --> 00:23:28,875
And now…
439
00:23:29,875 --> 00:23:33,541
that you've made a movie
that everybody loves…
440
00:23:34,958 --> 00:23:37,375
-the world's gonna be kissing your ass.
-[chuckles]
441
00:23:37,875 --> 00:23:39,208
-You think so?
-Mm-hmm.
442
00:23:40,125 --> 00:23:41,125
Yep.
443
00:23:41,791 --> 00:23:45,791
I heard that shit all night.
"Oh, he's so sensitive."
444
00:23:45,875 --> 00:23:49,083
"He's so in tune to emotion.
He's romantic."
445
00:23:49,166 --> 00:23:50,541
"I bet he's sweet, right?"
446
00:23:51,375 --> 00:23:54,916
-What did you say?
-I said, "Well, I mean, yeah."
447
00:23:55,000 --> 00:23:57,666
"When he's not being
an emotional fucking terrorist."
448
00:23:57,750 --> 00:23:59,125
[groans and laughs]
449
00:23:59,208 --> 00:24:00,875
[jazz music playing]
450
00:24:01,958 --> 00:24:03,250
Yes.
451
00:24:05,208 --> 00:24:06,166
-Yes.
-No.
452
00:24:06,875 --> 00:24:08,125
-[Malcolm grunts]
-Mmm.
453
00:24:10,000 --> 00:24:11,750
You think you're tough,
skinny-bones Jones?
454
00:24:11,833 --> 00:24:12,916
I am tough.
455
00:24:13,000 --> 00:24:16,333
Nah, I'll eat your ass for breakfast.
You light work.
456
00:24:30,166 --> 00:24:33,958
[Marie] You know, life is gonna get
easier, but it's also gonna get harder.
457
00:24:36,083 --> 00:24:37,500
[Malcolm] What do you mean?
458
00:24:40,833 --> 00:24:42,750
Just don't believe the hype, Malcolm.
459
00:24:46,000 --> 00:24:46,833
[kisses]
460
00:24:46,916 --> 00:24:49,583
And don't push away
the people who ground you.
461
00:24:52,333 --> 00:24:53,916
-Yeah.
-Yeah.
462
00:25:00,416 --> 00:25:02,833
[Marie] You're gonna
start making fake movies
463
00:25:02,916 --> 00:25:07,291
about fake people with fake emotions.
464
00:25:07,958 --> 00:25:09,416
[both chuckle]
465
00:25:10,291 --> 00:25:14,041
Then you'll start having dinner
with the white girl from LA Times.
466
00:25:14,125 --> 00:25:15,666
[both laughing]
467
00:25:15,750 --> 00:25:18,291
-Yeah. Mm-hmm.
-[Malcolm] No! Not the white girl.
468
00:25:18,375 --> 00:25:22,791
You'll be talking about
this one-take and… and that one-take,
469
00:25:22,875 --> 00:25:23,958
and how the camera…
470
00:25:24,041 --> 00:25:26,458
-[laughing]
-You know you do that, right?
471
00:25:26,541 --> 00:25:28,416
-[laughing]
-Literally.
472
00:25:28,500 --> 00:25:33,833
Next thing you know, you'll be on
your press tour for your new LEGO film.
473
00:25:33,916 --> 00:25:37,833
Talk about how it's an allegory
for the failures of reconstruction.
474
00:25:37,916 --> 00:25:39,000
[Malcolm chuckles]
475
00:25:39,916 --> 00:25:42,041
[Marie] "Well,
the original working title was…
476
00:25:42,125 --> 00:25:45,625
-Forty LEGOs And A Mule, but the…"
-[both laughing]
477
00:25:45,708 --> 00:25:48,375
"The studio got a little, uh…"
478
00:25:48,458 --> 00:25:49,541
[chuckling]
479
00:25:49,625 --> 00:25:51,791
[Malcolm laughing]
480
00:25:51,875 --> 00:25:53,208
[Marie] Mm-hmm.
481
00:25:53,291 --> 00:25:55,500
Malcolm, you laugh, but I can see it.
482
00:25:55,583 --> 00:25:58,083
-I'm serious, I can see that shit.
-[Malcolm laughs]
483
00:25:58,166 --> 00:26:01,458
[Marie] All your new Twitter friends
will be quote-tweeting your ass,
484
00:26:01,541 --> 00:26:05,458
handclaps and shit, talkin' 'bout,
"This is what change looks like."
485
00:26:05,541 --> 00:26:06,666
"Yes, king!"
486
00:26:06,750 --> 00:26:08,250
-[Malcolm] Oh, brutal.
-Mm-hmm.
487
00:26:08,333 --> 00:26:09,916
But the rest of America will be like,
488
00:26:10,000 --> 00:26:13,500
"What the fuck is this Negro doing
selling us some shit with these LEGOs?"
489
00:26:13,583 --> 00:26:15,416
"I'm not seein' that shit."
490
00:26:15,500 --> 00:26:17,541
[both laughing]
491
00:26:17,625 --> 00:26:20,125
Then there's
gonna be boycotts, fucking protests
492
00:26:20,208 --> 00:26:21,875
because you're politicizing these LEGOs,
493
00:26:21,958 --> 00:26:26,541
but thankfully, you'll have your new
white girlfriend from the LA Times.
494
00:26:26,625 --> 00:26:30,041
I mean, she's gonna come ridin' in
with her SPF-50 brigade
495
00:26:30,125 --> 00:26:32,375
-on some real soccer mom shit…
-[Malcolm laughing]
496
00:26:32,458 --> 00:26:34,833
…tweetin' at people left and right.
497
00:26:34,916 --> 00:26:37,541
"Well, this is literally censorship!"
498
00:26:37,625 --> 00:26:39,208
"Who is in charge here?"
499
00:26:39,291 --> 00:26:42,416
"It is our moral obligation
to go and see this movie
500
00:26:42,500 --> 00:26:47,041
written and directed by a real Bla…
I mean, person of color."
501
00:26:47,125 --> 00:26:48,958
"We are gonna make history, okay?"
502
00:26:49,041 --> 00:26:52,916
"We're going to make it
the biggest box office ever."
503
00:26:53,000 --> 00:26:54,458
And the next thing you know,
504
00:26:54,541 --> 00:26:58,666
you will have made
a toy company a billion dollars.
505
00:26:58,750 --> 00:27:01,291
-[laughs] Yes!
-Yes!
506
00:27:01,375 --> 00:27:04,041
"Congratulations, Malcolm Elliot!
You fucking did it!"
507
00:27:04,125 --> 00:27:05,541
[Marie imitates airhorn]
508
00:27:05,625 --> 00:27:08,416
"Here's a couple million dollars
and a fuckin' fruit basket."
509
00:27:08,500 --> 00:27:10,666
"But just as a thought,
have you ever considered
510
00:27:10,750 --> 00:27:13,458
doing the Angela Davis biopic,
but with LEGOs?"
511
00:27:14,833 --> 00:27:16,333
[both laughing]
512
00:27:16,416 --> 00:27:19,375
[Malcolm] You know
your white voice is crazy.
513
00:27:20,166 --> 00:27:22,125
-[Marie] You laugh, but…
-That's funny.
514
00:27:23,375 --> 00:27:25,125
[Marie] You could change the world.
515
00:27:25,625 --> 00:27:28,000
[Malcolm] You should've
never given up acting, baby.
516
00:27:28,083 --> 00:27:30,125
[Marie chuckles] Why, Malcolm?
517
00:27:30,208 --> 00:27:32,208
[Malcolm] I always believed
if you found a character
518
00:27:32,291 --> 00:27:35,958
that actually allowed you
to be yourself, you'd be astonishing.
519
00:27:38,708 --> 00:27:39,833
Well, Malcolm…
520
00:27:41,166 --> 00:27:43,750
unfortunately no one
can really write me except you.
521
00:27:46,125 --> 00:27:48,541
[Malcolm] Hmm. Hmm.
522
00:27:51,500 --> 00:27:52,500
[Marie sighs]
523
00:27:54,833 --> 00:27:55,875
[Malcolm sighs]
524
00:28:14,333 --> 00:28:17,416
["I Forgot To Be Your Lover"
by William Bell playing]
525
00:28:27,750 --> 00:28:30,250
[Malcolm singing along]
♪ Have I told you ♪
526
00:28:30,333 --> 00:28:33,416
♪ Lately that I love you? ♪
527
00:28:35,833 --> 00:28:39,958
♪ Well, if I didn't, darling, I'm sorry ♪
528
00:28:42,666 --> 00:28:47,208
♪ Did I reach out
And hold you in my loving arms ♪
529
00:28:47,291 --> 00:28:48,958
♪ In my loving arms ♪
530
00:28:49,583 --> 00:28:52,375
♪ Oh, when you needed me? ♪
531
00:28:54,708 --> 00:28:58,125
♪ Now I realize that you need love too ♪
532
00:28:58,208 --> 00:29:02,166
♪ And I'll spend my life
Making love to you ♪
533
00:29:04,125 --> 00:29:07,125
♪ Oh, I forgot to be your lover ♪
534
00:29:08,750 --> 00:29:12,583
♪ And I'm sorry, I'm so sorry… ♪
535
00:29:12,666 --> 00:29:13,583
Marie!
536
00:29:16,666 --> 00:29:18,458
-♪ Have I taken the time ♪
-Marie!
537
00:29:18,541 --> 00:29:20,250
♪ To share with you ♪
538
00:29:21,791 --> 00:29:25,916
♪ All the burden that love will fare? ♪
539
00:29:29,291 --> 00:29:31,333
♪ And have I done the little ♪
540
00:29:31,416 --> 00:29:32,250
Marie.
541
00:29:32,333 --> 00:29:35,041
♪ Simple things to show you ♪
542
00:29:37,208 --> 00:29:39,791
♪ Just how much I care? ♪
543
00:29:41,333 --> 00:29:42,166
Marie!
544
00:29:42,250 --> 00:29:45,958
♪ I've been workin' for you
Doin' all I can ♪
545
00:29:46,875 --> 00:29:47,708
Marie!
546
00:29:47,791 --> 00:29:49,625
♪ …didn't make me a man ♪
547
00:29:52,833 --> 00:29:54,291
Marie, stop playin'.
548
00:29:56,916 --> 00:30:02,500
♪ And I'm sorry
I'll make it up to you somehow, baby ♪
549
00:30:06,291 --> 00:30:07,166
Marie!
550
00:30:09,125 --> 00:30:09,958
Shit.
551
00:30:14,125 --> 00:30:15,000
Marie!
552
00:30:19,916 --> 00:30:23,458
♪ Oh, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, baby ♪
553
00:30:24,500 --> 00:30:26,041
[Malcolm] Marie, stop playin'.
554
00:30:27,166 --> 00:30:28,250
[crickets chirping]
555
00:30:31,541 --> 00:30:32,375
Marie!
556
00:30:38,750 --> 00:30:40,125
[door slides open]
557
00:30:41,000 --> 00:30:42,000
Marie!
558
00:30:45,041 --> 00:30:45,916
Marie!
559
00:30:47,541 --> 00:30:48,375
Shit.
560
00:30:55,583 --> 00:30:57,583
[crickets chirping]
561
00:30:58,500 --> 00:31:00,000
[leaves rustling]
562
00:31:12,250 --> 00:31:13,083
Marie.
563
00:31:17,916 --> 00:31:19,625
[wind chimes tinkling]
564
00:31:19,708 --> 00:31:21,208
[footsteps receding]
565
00:31:24,916 --> 00:31:26,666
[footsteps approaching]
566
00:31:29,291 --> 00:31:30,208
Marie!
567
00:31:43,458 --> 00:31:44,750
Oh, my God!
568
00:31:45,666 --> 00:31:46,666
[drawer slams shut]
569
00:31:47,791 --> 00:31:50,416
-Where the fuck did you go?
-To pee.
570
00:31:50,500 --> 00:31:52,750
-To pee-- Where?
-Outside.
571
00:31:53,708 --> 00:31:55,791
Why didn't you just use the bathroom?
572
00:31:55,875 --> 00:31:57,958
Because I didn't grow up with a backyard.
573
00:31:58,041 --> 00:32:00,125
-The novelty hasn't worn off yet.
-Jesus!
574
00:32:04,333 --> 00:32:07,666
You know, you are
the neediest man I have ever dated.
575
00:32:08,500 --> 00:32:13,500
But at the same time, you are also
the least jealous man I have ever dated.
576
00:32:13,583 --> 00:32:17,125
I mean, I could literally be hanging
on some random guy's arm
577
00:32:17,208 --> 00:32:19,208
and you would never think it's sexual.
578
00:32:19,291 --> 00:32:22,875
You'd just come up to me and be like,
"Hey, babe. What the hell are you doing?"
579
00:32:22,958 --> 00:32:26,041
"I need your help. I can't remember
anybody's name here. Let's go."
580
00:32:26,125 --> 00:32:28,916
-But whose arm are you hanging on?
-That's it. Doesn't matter.
581
00:32:29,000 --> 00:32:30,791
-[Malcolm] Is this about tonight?
-Mmm.
582
00:32:32,041 --> 00:32:32,875
Kinda.
583
00:32:36,875 --> 00:32:38,083
-"Kinda"?
-Hmm.
584
00:32:38,166 --> 00:32:39,291
[Malcolm] Mm-hmm.
585
00:32:41,375 --> 00:32:43,666
I was outside smoking and you were in here
586
00:32:43,750 --> 00:32:47,958
apologizing in whatever
emotionally obtuse way made sense to you.
587
00:32:48,041 --> 00:32:51,250
As if a song written 50 years ago
about a different fucking girl
588
00:32:51,333 --> 00:32:54,583
would somehow make me
feel better about our relationship.
589
00:32:54,666 --> 00:32:57,625
Some people would say
lack of jealousy is a good thing.
590
00:32:57,708 --> 00:33:01,875
-Not when it borders on indifference.
-What are you talkin' about, Marie?
591
00:33:03,208 --> 00:33:07,375
Malcolm, you can encourage me
to have a life of my own,
592
00:33:07,458 --> 00:33:09,708
but that's just… That's bullshit.
593
00:33:09,791 --> 00:33:12,833
You don't want me to have
a life that is separate from yours
594
00:33:12,916 --> 00:33:14,791
because you are too fucking needy.
595
00:33:14,875 --> 00:33:16,125
Thought we were done fighting.
596
00:33:16,208 --> 00:33:18,708
-Don't be sensitive. This isn't a fight.
-Yeah, right.
597
00:33:18,791 --> 00:33:20,416
It's not. It's an observation.
598
00:33:21,333 --> 00:33:23,208
-Tsk. Oh, you don't wanna go there.
-Why?
599
00:33:23,291 --> 00:33:24,750
-Trust me, you don't.
-Why?
600
00:33:24,833 --> 00:33:26,583
Even if you do,
you're not thinking clearly.
601
00:33:26,666 --> 00:33:29,458
-I think I'm thinking clearly.
-Trust me, you're not.
602
00:33:29,541 --> 00:33:33,083
-I do have a slightly masochistic streak.
-But you're not dumb.
603
00:33:33,166 --> 00:33:35,166
-Oh, my God. Thank you.
-Don't be a fucking brat.
604
00:33:35,250 --> 00:33:37,958
Don't patronize me
and tell me I gave up something
605
00:33:38,041 --> 00:33:40,875
when you know damn well
your work is all that you have time for
606
00:33:40,958 --> 00:33:42,125
and all you care about.
607
00:33:42,208 --> 00:33:46,041
Oh, so you gave up a career in acting
to be an emotional fucking support dog.
608
00:33:46,875 --> 00:33:48,500
-Fuck you, Malcolm!
-I get it now.
609
00:33:48,583 --> 00:33:50,833
-Fuck you!
-'Cause you're scared, you didn't want it.
610
00:33:50,916 --> 00:33:51,750
You never wanted it.
611
00:33:51,833 --> 00:33:54,291
-'Cause you're scared to try and fail.
-You are ugly inside.
612
00:33:54,375 --> 00:33:55,291
No, fuck you!
613
00:33:55,875 --> 00:33:58,791
Marie, when I met you,
you were a fucking pilled-out disaster.
614
00:33:58,875 --> 00:34:00,166
You were barely 20 years old.
615
00:34:00,250 --> 00:34:02,250
Couldn't hold a conversation
without noddin' off,
616
00:34:02,333 --> 00:34:03,750
or passin' out, or breaking down.
617
00:34:03,833 --> 00:34:08,041
Don't act like for the last five years
you became so enlightened that I fucking…
618
00:34:08,625 --> 00:34:10,083
forgot the old you.
619
00:34:10,833 --> 00:34:12,583
-Of course I want you to have a life.
-[sighs]
620
00:34:12,666 --> 00:34:15,083
You know why?
Because I'm terrified that if you don't,
621
00:34:15,166 --> 00:34:16,750
you're gonna hang everything on mine.
622
00:34:16,833 --> 00:34:19,625
And when, God forbid,
I forget to thank you at a movie premiere,
623
00:34:19,708 --> 00:34:23,166
you come home, you start a fight,
and by morning you're drinking on Xannies,
624
00:34:23,250 --> 00:34:26,833
trying to fuckin' cut your wrists
with a pair of fucking nail scissors.
625
00:34:27,750 --> 00:34:30,250
[Malcolm muttering] Stupid motherf…
626
00:34:30,333 --> 00:34:31,958
Malcolm, I want you to leave this room.
627
00:34:32,041 --> 00:34:34,875
Oh, shut the fuck up, Marie.
You know, I get it. I really do.
628
00:34:34,958 --> 00:34:37,541
You have pain and fucking
disappointment and dreams
629
00:34:37,625 --> 00:34:39,500
like everybody else on planet Earth.
630
00:34:39,583 --> 00:34:41,916
You're mad you didn't get
the jobs you wish you'd got.
631
00:34:42,000 --> 00:34:44,541
You're embarrassed
you had to play "Skinny Girl In Alley"
632
00:34:44,625 --> 00:34:46,208
and "Concerned Nurse Number Two."
633
00:34:46,291 --> 00:34:50,000
Well, guess what? None of us
are proud of where we first start off.
634
00:34:50,083 --> 00:34:54,375
I started off, I had to do token fuckin'
punch up on straight to VOD rom-coms,
635
00:34:54,458 --> 00:34:57,625
and under-the-table rewrites on films
that didn't wanna pay writers!
636
00:34:57,708 --> 00:34:59,041
But you keep working!
637
00:34:59,125 --> 00:35:01,541
You keep on trying!
You work harder and harder
638
00:35:01,625 --> 00:35:03,750
'cause even if
you're not talented, which you are,
639
00:35:03,833 --> 00:35:06,833
you can still get somewhere,
as long as you don't have an ego.
640
00:35:06,916 --> 00:35:10,125
You don't have to be proud
of everything you do!
641
00:35:10,208 --> 00:35:14,083
But you do have
to work harder than 99% of people.
642
00:35:14,166 --> 00:35:16,000
[breathing heavily]
643
00:35:16,083 --> 00:35:18,958
You know what's bullshit?
What's a fucking cop-out, Marie?
644
00:35:19,041 --> 00:35:22,791
Is you acting like my work
is so fucking suffocating
645
00:35:22,875 --> 00:35:26,041
that you can't even breathe,
that you don't have any fucking space.
646
00:35:26,125 --> 00:35:27,583
I mean, look around.
647
00:35:27,666 --> 00:35:31,166
Look at this fucking house
the production company put us up in.
648
00:35:31,250 --> 00:35:33,458
Pick a room, get to fucking work,
649
00:35:33,541 --> 00:35:37,625
and stop blaming me for your
inabilities to get your shit together!
650
00:35:37,708 --> 00:35:39,083
[Malcolm breathing heavily]
651
00:35:40,333 --> 00:35:42,541
I checked you into rehab.
652
00:35:42,625 --> 00:35:45,250
I went to group therapy with you.
I've been with you.
653
00:35:45,333 --> 00:35:48,166
I fucking supported you
every single step of the way.
654
00:35:51,708 --> 00:35:53,208
When you were depressed,
655
00:35:53,291 --> 00:35:56,333
when you were on so many meds
that you couldn't fuck for half a year,
656
00:35:56,416 --> 00:35:57,625
I was there for you.
657
00:35:57,708 --> 00:35:59,791
When you relapsed, I was there for you.
658
00:35:59,875 --> 00:36:04,083
When we lived on 38th Street
and you went out to that meeting, right?
659
00:36:04,166 --> 00:36:06,458
And you went to the meeting
and you didn't come home
660
00:36:06,541 --> 00:36:08,791
because you were
fucking somebody else, right?
661
00:36:08,875 --> 00:36:10,458
Guess who was there for you?
662
00:36:10,541 --> 00:36:11,833
This nigga right here.
663
00:36:14,791 --> 00:36:17,500
So, don't go there.
664
00:36:17,583 --> 00:36:22,375
Do not fucking go there because
you are not gonna win this one, Marie.
665
00:36:22,458 --> 00:36:23,500
Trust me.
666
00:36:25,250 --> 00:36:26,291
[Malcolm sniffles]
667
00:36:29,583 --> 00:36:30,750
[clattering in kitchen]
668
00:36:33,958 --> 00:36:35,958
[bottle opening]
669
00:36:50,125 --> 00:36:52,458
[gulps, sighs]
670
00:36:52,541 --> 00:36:53,791
-[sniffles]
-[glass clatters]
671
00:36:53,875 --> 00:36:54,875
[sighing]
672
00:36:56,958 --> 00:36:59,416
All right, how about
we cut the bullshit, Malcolm?
673
00:37:00,333 --> 00:37:04,125
Since everybody's being honest tonight,
how about you be honest? Hmm?
674
00:37:04,625 --> 00:37:06,791
About the real reason
you were there for me.
675
00:37:11,291 --> 00:37:13,208
I was good fucking material.
676
00:37:15,958 --> 00:37:18,791
Hmm? That's why you stuck by me.
677
00:37:19,958 --> 00:37:21,375
Because I was a story.
678
00:37:21,458 --> 00:37:25,041
It was a world of emotions you weren't
used to seeing so fucking close.
679
00:37:25,125 --> 00:37:28,541
And because I was 20 years old and I'd
never been loved the way you loved me
680
00:37:28,625 --> 00:37:31,583
or thought you loved me,
I didn't realize what I was to you.
681
00:37:32,916 --> 00:37:35,750
A fucking movie. A tragedy.
682
00:37:35,833 --> 00:37:38,958
One that you could continue watching
for as long as you were there for me.
683
00:37:39,041 --> 00:37:42,250
And tonight, in that fucking audience,
I watched the whole shit play out.
684
00:37:42,333 --> 00:37:45,541
So don't pretend like it was
a selfless fucking act, Malcolm.
685
00:37:46,125 --> 00:37:49,208
It's literally the basis of your art
and it is the reason
686
00:37:49,291 --> 00:37:52,791
why all these people are calling you
brilliant and brave and fearless.
687
00:37:56,041 --> 00:37:56,916
[scoffs]
688
00:37:57,583 --> 00:37:59,166
"So tell us, Malcolm."
689
00:38:00,958 --> 00:38:03,583
"How were you able to breathe life
into the character of Imani?"
690
00:38:03,666 --> 00:38:06,625
"How were you able
to channel the voice of a young woman
691
00:38:06,708 --> 00:38:08,666
so well, so authentically?"
692
00:38:09,416 --> 00:38:10,333
"Hmm."
693
00:38:11,125 --> 00:38:15,500
"Well, Jennifer, that's a good question.
I guess you could say I stole it."
694
00:38:15,583 --> 00:38:17,000
"I ripped it off."
695
00:38:17,791 --> 00:38:20,166
"Not a literal theft, a spiritual one."
696
00:38:21,375 --> 00:38:22,625
You're a fucking fraud.
697
00:38:22,708 --> 00:38:26,208
The reason you didn't thank me tonight
is because you already know that.
698
00:38:26,291 --> 00:38:30,125
[scoffing] You have nothing new to say.
699
00:38:30,208 --> 00:38:33,250
[laughs] All you can do is fuckin' mimic.
700
00:38:33,333 --> 00:38:35,541
Be a fucking parakeet, a goddamn cockatoo.
701
00:38:35,625 --> 00:38:38,333
I mean, God forbid you are ever alone,
702
00:38:38,416 --> 00:38:40,666
and have to dream up
another original idea.
703
00:38:40,750 --> 00:38:42,833
What are you going to write, Malcolm?
704
00:38:44,208 --> 00:38:45,166
Huh?
705
00:38:46,791 --> 00:38:47,625
Yourself?
706
00:38:49,458 --> 00:38:51,000
Give me a fucking break.
707
00:38:51,875 --> 00:38:54,041
You don't have the balls. [slaps leg]
708
00:38:54,125 --> 00:38:57,958
You don't have the gravitas, the fucking
introspection to look at yourself
709
00:38:58,041 --> 00:38:59,958
and your flaws and your shortcomings
710
00:39:00,041 --> 00:39:02,791
and the fact that you may not be
the next Spike Lee or Barry Jenkins
711
00:39:02,875 --> 00:39:05,708
because those motherfuckers
had something new to say.
712
00:39:05,791 --> 00:39:09,291
Something true to themselves
and their fucking experience.
713
00:39:10,458 --> 00:39:13,500
You say the film is about shame and guilt.
714
00:39:13,583 --> 00:39:15,125
-[pouring liquid]
-Correct?
715
00:39:15,958 --> 00:39:17,333
Your words, not mine.
716
00:39:18,333 --> 00:39:20,916
All right. Well, I have
a question for you, Malcolm.
717
00:39:21,000 --> 00:39:22,791
Whose fucking shame?
718
00:39:23,458 --> 00:39:25,166
Whose guilt?
719
00:39:25,250 --> 00:39:28,291
What the fuck do you know
about shame and guilt?
720
00:39:28,375 --> 00:39:31,458
You have two parents, no bad habits
other than being a fucking prick,
721
00:39:31,541 --> 00:39:32,666
and a college education.
722
00:39:32,750 --> 00:39:35,250
Your mother is a therapist.
Your father is a professor.
723
00:39:35,333 --> 00:39:38,000
Your sister works for a think tank in D.C.
724
00:39:38,083 --> 00:39:42,333
But out here, on these streets,
these smiling fucking rich people,
725
00:39:42,416 --> 00:39:44,916
they think you know
what it's like to scrap.
726
00:39:46,083 --> 00:39:49,375
Think you fucking lived it.
Give me a break.
727
00:39:50,666 --> 00:39:53,750
You're more privileged than the white girl
who works for the LA Times,
728
00:39:53,833 --> 00:39:57,083
who thinks she's doing a public service
by lifting up your mediocre ass.
729
00:39:57,875 --> 00:39:58,875
Now you're being cruel.
730
00:39:58,958 --> 00:40:01,750
Try slitting your wrists
with a pair of nail scissors.
731
00:40:04,541 --> 00:40:07,333
You're not gonna wanna survive it,
because it's embarrassing.
732
00:40:07,416 --> 00:40:08,250
Don't worry.
733
00:40:08,333 --> 00:40:11,291
I'm not so petty I throw it out
in argument because I'm angry.
734
00:40:11,375 --> 00:40:13,416
-I didn't mean it.
-Too late.
735
00:40:15,000 --> 00:40:16,958
It's embarrassing and it's cruel,
736
00:40:17,041 --> 00:40:19,416
and it makes me regret
sharing so much with you.
737
00:40:26,750 --> 00:40:29,000
-[softly] Fucking calling me…
-[door shuts]
738
00:40:30,541 --> 00:40:34,833
[mumbling profanity]
739
00:40:34,916 --> 00:40:37,041
-[instrumental music playing]
-[water running]
740
00:40:41,791 --> 00:40:43,291
[foot tapping]
741
00:40:55,583 --> 00:40:59,375
-[crickets chirping]
-[muttering] I'm keeping you…
742
00:41:10,958 --> 00:41:11,791
Bullshit!
743
00:41:23,000 --> 00:41:26,541
How the fuck am I keeping you from a life?
744
00:41:26,625 --> 00:41:27,875
So stupid.
745
00:41:31,333 --> 00:41:32,458
[grunting]
746
00:41:37,125 --> 00:41:38,083
Fucking bullshit.
747
00:41:46,208 --> 00:41:47,958
[mumbling indistinctly]
748
00:41:55,166 --> 00:41:57,916
I know… I know what this is.
This is bullshit.
749
00:42:02,416 --> 00:42:03,583
Fuck Malibu.
750
00:42:08,375 --> 00:42:09,583
[banging]
751
00:42:11,000 --> 00:42:12,500
What do you mean, "mediocre"?
752
00:42:13,333 --> 00:42:14,458
[Marie inhales deeply]
753
00:42:15,375 --> 00:42:16,708
[water gurgling]
754
00:42:16,791 --> 00:42:18,458
[door slides open]
755
00:42:20,750 --> 00:42:22,583
Were you just trying to be mean?
756
00:42:23,208 --> 00:42:24,416
Is that why you said it?
757
00:42:32,166 --> 00:42:33,458
Out of everything I said,
758
00:42:34,791 --> 00:42:36,791
"mediocre" is what stuck with you?
759
00:42:37,458 --> 00:42:39,666
I just wanna know
if you actually believe it.
760
00:42:42,750 --> 00:42:43,583
Guess.
761
00:42:44,083 --> 00:42:47,333
-Answer the question.
-What is the question specifically?
762
00:42:47,416 --> 00:42:49,166
Do you not like the movie?
763
00:42:50,125 --> 00:42:51,166
I never said that.
764
00:42:53,791 --> 00:42:56,208
-So you don't like me and the movie.
-I never said that.
765
00:42:56,291 --> 00:42:58,125
That's literally
what you just fucking said.
766
00:42:59,083 --> 00:43:00,958
I feel like you're being a bit irrational.
767
00:43:01,041 --> 00:43:02,166
I'm being irrational?
768
00:43:02,958 --> 00:43:05,916
I'm being fucking irrational?
This is the biggest night of my life,
769
00:43:06,000 --> 00:43:09,041
and you're trying to turn it
into the worst and I'm being irrational.
770
00:43:09,750 --> 00:43:10,750
Look at you.
771
00:43:10,833 --> 00:43:13,625
You're so solipsistic
that you see yourself in everything.
772
00:43:13,708 --> 00:43:15,708
Even in things you had nothing to do with.
773
00:43:15,791 --> 00:43:17,375
You notice the way Imani walks.
774
00:43:17,458 --> 00:43:20,333
You turn to me and say,
"I wonder where you got that walk from."
775
00:43:20,416 --> 00:43:22,458
I don't say shit.
I actually smile, don't I?
776
00:43:22,541 --> 00:43:25,333
Keep that shit light
because I don't wanna hurt your feelings,
777
00:43:25,416 --> 00:43:27,541
but you tally that shit up, Marie.
778
00:43:27,625 --> 00:43:30,083
While I'm actually
doing something, creating something,
779
00:43:30,166 --> 00:43:33,791
you're on the sidelines trying to justify
your motherfucking existence.
780
00:43:34,750 --> 00:43:39,791
"I know that line." "I said that."
"I did that." "You got that from me."
781
00:43:39,875 --> 00:43:43,250
Shit, even feedback from you
comes with an IOU, Marie.
782
00:43:43,333 --> 00:43:45,500
You wanna play fucking dirty?
783
00:43:46,083 --> 00:43:47,291
Well, let's fucking go.
784
00:43:48,833 --> 00:43:50,208
You wanna hurt me, Marie.
785
00:43:51,500 --> 00:43:54,166
I promise you,
I can hurt you ten times worse.
786
00:43:55,166 --> 00:43:57,791
You're a fucking featherweight,
a level-one boss.
787
00:43:57,875 --> 00:43:59,833
I can snap you like a twig.
788
00:44:01,875 --> 00:44:04,291
Imani is based on you
as much as she is on me.
789
00:44:04,375 --> 00:44:05,625
What she says to the nurse,
790
00:44:05,708 --> 00:44:09,833
that's what I said to the doctor
when my dad was in the ICU.
791
00:44:11,000 --> 00:44:13,375
You noticed the way
Imani walks, didn't you?
792
00:44:14,083 --> 00:44:15,166
It's a good walk.
793
00:44:15,916 --> 00:44:18,208
That was my ex-girlfriend, Jess.
794
00:44:19,708 --> 00:44:21,708
So was the scene
on the bicycle in the rain.
795
00:44:21,791 --> 00:44:23,916
It wasn't based on the trip
you and I took to Barcelona.
796
00:44:24,000 --> 00:44:27,833
That's Jess and I
on the Citi Bike in Brooklyn.
797
00:44:28,541 --> 00:44:31,083
The way she ties her shoes with two loops…
798
00:44:32,083 --> 00:44:33,291
That was Jayla.
799
00:44:34,250 --> 00:44:35,416
You weren't the first.
800
00:44:35,500 --> 00:44:38,041
The joke about
how she doesn't give handjobs.
801
00:44:38,125 --> 00:44:41,666
Well, that's an old played-out line
that every nigga done heard before.
802
00:44:42,750 --> 00:44:46,125
The joke she makes
about how quickly she orgasms.
803
00:44:47,583 --> 00:44:48,583
That was Kiki.
804
00:44:49,416 --> 00:44:50,666
Kiki.
805
00:44:51,708 --> 00:44:53,083
She's a dancer.
806
00:44:54,958 --> 00:44:56,833
Dancer. We'll call her a dancer.
807
00:44:58,333 --> 00:45:00,833
Who I met
outside of St. Louis on a road trip.
808
00:45:00,916 --> 00:45:04,375
I fucked the shit out of her
in the penthouse suite of a Marriott.
809
00:45:04,458 --> 00:45:07,083
Once on the bed, once in the shower.
810
00:45:07,166 --> 00:45:09,916
We might've even fucked
in the closet or some shit too.
811
00:45:10,875 --> 00:45:12,166
I got a Polaroid of her.
812
00:45:13,666 --> 00:45:16,583
Sitting naked in a heart-shaped tub.
813
00:45:16,666 --> 00:45:19,416
It's in a photo album
at home in our closet.
814
00:45:22,083 --> 00:45:23,500
But you're an addict, right?
815
00:45:24,500 --> 00:45:26,500
That's what makes you so unique, right?
816
00:45:26,583 --> 00:45:29,958
That's what makes your contribution
so much more significant, right?
817
00:45:31,000 --> 00:45:33,833
Get the entire fuck out of here.
818
00:45:33,916 --> 00:45:37,500
You're not the first broken girl
I've known, fucked or dated.
819
00:45:38,125 --> 00:45:41,208
I wrote my first script
in a one-bedroom apartment with Leah,
820
00:45:41,291 --> 00:45:43,625
who I thought loved hour-long showers
821
00:45:43,708 --> 00:45:47,291
until I found her passed out
with a fucking needle in her arm.
822
00:45:47,958 --> 00:45:50,708
Two years ago,
I got an email from her sister
823
00:45:50,791 --> 00:45:53,958
saying she took a whole bottle
of Tylenol to the head and passed away
824
00:45:54,041 --> 00:45:55,333
and asked if I had any pictures
825
00:45:55,416 --> 00:45:57,833
'cause she was putting together
a slideshow on her behalf.
826
00:45:57,916 --> 00:46:00,291
Now that I think about it,
I should've thanked her tonight.
827
00:46:00,375 --> 00:46:01,500
She deserves it.
828
00:46:08,250 --> 00:46:09,375
Same with Tasha.
829
00:46:10,791 --> 00:46:13,000
First girl I actually loved,
I truly loved.
830
00:46:13,083 --> 00:46:14,750
The first girl who truly broke my heart.
831
00:46:14,833 --> 00:46:17,208
She never cheated on me.
She's got that going for her.
832
00:46:17,291 --> 00:46:19,708
She found Jesus,
got married, got divorced.
833
00:46:19,791 --> 00:46:23,000
She constantly DMs me
pictures of her daughter
834
00:46:23,083 --> 00:46:25,500
saying she wished she had a child with me.
835
00:46:26,291 --> 00:46:30,333
I send her heart emojis because I honestly
don't know how to respond to that.
836
00:46:31,916 --> 00:46:33,000
Are you done?
837
00:46:35,541 --> 00:46:37,291
Not even fucking close.
838
00:46:39,333 --> 00:46:40,916
Why, would you like me to stop?
839
00:46:43,583 --> 00:46:46,125
[quietly] No, Malcolm. Keep going.
840
00:46:46,208 --> 00:46:47,875
-Why?
-Hmm.
841
00:46:49,625 --> 00:46:50,958
'Cause you like that shit?
842
00:46:52,541 --> 00:46:55,041
You know how disturbed you are, Marie?
843
00:46:55,125 --> 00:46:58,083
You may have gotten clean, but
you still haven't figured this part out.
844
00:46:58,166 --> 00:47:01,916
Why you love being hurt,
traumatized and fucking eviscerated?
845
00:47:03,791 --> 00:47:04,625
It's not normal.
846
00:47:04,708 --> 00:47:08,125
It's not healthy, and it permeates
every aspect of our relationship.
847
00:47:08,208 --> 00:47:12,541
The way we talk,
the way we fight, the way we fuck.
848
00:47:12,625 --> 00:47:15,541
I've dated some
damaged people in my life, Marie.
849
00:47:15,625 --> 00:47:19,500
But none of them wanted to be
debased and degraded like you.
850
00:47:20,458 --> 00:47:22,041
And honestly, Marie…
851
00:47:24,125 --> 00:47:25,833
it's nothing to be proud of.
852
00:47:30,000 --> 00:47:35,000
So stop fucking smiling,
'cause you look like a clown.
853
00:47:38,750 --> 00:47:40,500
Now there's some material for you.
854
00:47:45,166 --> 00:47:47,166
[footsteps receding]
855
00:48:03,875 --> 00:48:06,750
You know what I just realized, Marie?
856
00:48:09,333 --> 00:48:11,541
It's not about justifying your existence.
857
00:48:12,916 --> 00:48:13,916
It's not.
858
00:48:15,208 --> 00:48:17,458
It's about you
being so scared and so selfish
859
00:48:17,541 --> 00:48:19,333
that you have to break me down.
860
00:48:20,875 --> 00:48:22,708
Second guess everything I do.
861
00:48:23,375 --> 00:48:24,916
"Am I mediocre?"
862
00:48:25,625 --> 00:48:27,541
"Can I do this without her?"
863
00:48:27,625 --> 00:48:31,500
"I don't know. I better ask Marie.
Maybe Marie will know the answer."
864
00:48:31,583 --> 00:48:33,458
"Where's Marie?
I need Marie." That's a cut.
865
00:48:33,541 --> 00:48:34,916
"Marie, where did you go?"
866
00:48:35,000 --> 00:48:36,958
"Did you see that performance?
What'd you think?"
867
00:48:37,041 --> 00:48:38,958
"You liked it? Yeah, me too."
868
00:48:39,833 --> 00:48:44,125
God forbid I'm secure enough
in my opinion that I don't need you.
869
00:48:45,541 --> 00:48:47,333
That's what this all is about.
870
00:48:47,958 --> 00:48:50,166
Your whole speech about fake films.
871
00:48:52,125 --> 00:48:54,625
You just need a reason to be needed
872
00:48:54,708 --> 00:48:59,000
because if I don't need you, then
what the hell am I doing with you, Marie?
873
00:49:00,875 --> 00:49:02,208
You want control
874
00:49:02,291 --> 00:49:06,333
because you can't imagine the reason
I'm with you is because I love you.
875
00:49:08,416 --> 00:49:10,291
I just love you, baby.
876
00:49:11,791 --> 00:49:13,041
I don't need you.
877
00:49:14,000 --> 00:49:17,625
But I love you. That there's somebody
on this planet that just loves you.
878
00:49:19,333 --> 00:49:21,958
I love the way your mind works, Marie.
879
00:49:23,208 --> 00:49:24,083
I do.
880
00:49:24,625 --> 00:49:27,375
I love the way you see the world.
881
00:49:28,291 --> 00:49:30,500
I love the way you think.
882
00:49:31,250 --> 00:49:32,125
Your instincts.
883
00:49:32,208 --> 00:49:36,375
And I'm so fucking grateful
884
00:49:36,458 --> 00:49:39,916
because everything
that you've been through, everything…
885
00:49:42,166 --> 00:49:44,500
That's what made you you.
That's what made you you.
886
00:49:44,583 --> 00:49:46,541
The girl that I love,
the girl that I fuck with,
887
00:49:46,625 --> 00:49:48,958
the girl that I'm up
at 2:00 a.m. in the morning
888
00:49:49,041 --> 00:49:54,125
on the biggest night of my life
because she's relentless. [laughing]
889
00:49:57,041 --> 00:49:58,250
And crazy.
890
00:50:00,708 --> 00:50:03,750
[voice shaking]
And I'm sorry, though. I'm sorry.
891
00:50:04,875 --> 00:50:07,875
I apologized, you know, and…
892
00:50:09,375 --> 00:50:11,750
a thousand times. I know I fucked up.
893
00:50:12,625 --> 00:50:15,916
But honestly, the second we got home,
894
00:50:16,500 --> 00:50:18,916
all I wanted to do
was celebrate with you, baby.
895
00:50:19,750 --> 00:50:22,458
Marie, my girl, the love of my life.
896
00:50:26,875 --> 00:50:30,333
You wanna know the part
of Imani that's based on you?
897
00:50:33,833 --> 00:50:34,833
It's the end.
898
00:50:36,250 --> 00:50:38,833
The part that makes it
such a tragedy. The part…
899
00:50:39,791 --> 00:50:40,916
that she…
900
00:50:41,000 --> 00:50:45,833
Where she loathes herself so much
because of all the guilt and the shame.
901
00:50:47,875 --> 00:50:49,666
That she can't let the good in.
902
00:50:52,833 --> 00:50:54,875
That's the part that's based on you.
903
00:50:57,666 --> 00:50:59,916
Her inability to fathom
904
00:51:00,000 --> 00:51:03,291
that there's someone
on this planet Earth that just loves her.
905
00:51:06,541 --> 00:51:08,625
Despite her not loving herself.
906
00:51:13,333 --> 00:51:14,333
That's you.
907
00:51:19,750 --> 00:51:21,583
That's the part that isn't fiction.
908
00:51:41,750 --> 00:51:42,833
[sighs]
909
00:51:48,083 --> 00:51:49,291
[glass clattering]
910
00:51:50,958 --> 00:51:52,541
[bottle opening]
911
00:51:53,250 --> 00:51:54,875
[liquid pouring]
912
00:51:54,958 --> 00:51:57,833
[solemn instrumental music playing]
913
00:52:07,583 --> 00:52:08,625
[sighs]
914
00:52:10,083 --> 00:52:11,375
[inhales deeply]
915
00:52:16,208 --> 00:52:17,791
-[water splashing]
-[crying]
916
00:53:15,125 --> 00:53:16,166
[water running]
917
00:53:46,083 --> 00:53:47,375
[sighs]
918
00:53:59,708 --> 00:54:01,375
You gonna start smoking again?
919
00:54:09,833 --> 00:54:10,875
[sighs]
920
00:54:23,708 --> 00:54:25,708
[knuckles cracking]
921
00:54:28,125 --> 00:54:32,083
["Get Rid Of Him" by Dionne Warwick
playing on cell phone]
922
00:54:32,166 --> 00:54:35,500
♪ We're your friends
And we've got some good advice ♪
923
00:54:36,125 --> 00:54:39,750
♪ Before you let him break your heart
You'd better think twice ♪
924
00:54:40,541 --> 00:54:43,541
♪ He isn't worth the tears you're cryin' ♪
925
00:54:44,583 --> 00:54:47,166
♪ He's only out to break your heart ♪
926
00:54:48,583 --> 00:54:51,625
♪ Him with his cheatin' and his lyin' ♪
927
00:54:52,625 --> 00:54:55,458
♪ He's gonna rip your dreams apart ♪
928
00:54:56,583 --> 00:55:00,166
♪ But I love him ♪
929
00:55:00,250 --> 00:55:03,708
♪ And there's nothing I can do ♪
930
00:55:04,500 --> 00:55:06,416
-♪ Get rid of him ♪
-♪ Uh-uh ♪
931
00:55:06,500 --> 00:55:08,583
-♪ Get rid of him ♪
-♪ Oh, no ♪
932
00:55:08,666 --> 00:55:11,416
♪ Do you mean to say
You still consider him? ♪
933
00:55:11,500 --> 00:55:12,583
♪ Ah-ha ♪
934
00:55:12,666 --> 00:55:16,666
-♪ When you tell me that he's lazy ♪
-♪ Get rid of him ♪
935
00:55:16,750 --> 00:55:20,625
-♪ You're just sayin' things I know ♪
-♪ Get rid of him ♪
936
00:55:20,708 --> 00:55:24,750
-♪ You can tell me that I'm crazy ♪
-♪ Get rid of him ♪
937
00:55:24,833 --> 00:55:27,958
♪ But I'll never let him go ♪
938
00:55:28,750 --> 00:55:31,916
♪ He will hurt you ♪
939
00:55:32,000 --> 00:55:35,458
♪ And he'll break your heart in two ♪
940
00:55:36,458 --> 00:55:38,416
[Marie singing along] ♪ Get rid of him
Uh-uh ♪
941
00:55:38,500 --> 00:55:40,666
-♪ Get rid of him ♪
-♪ Oh, no ♪
942
00:55:40,750 --> 00:55:43,375
♪ Do you mean to say
You still consider him? ♪
943
00:55:43,458 --> 00:55:44,458
♪ Ah-ha ♪
944
00:55:47,375 --> 00:55:48,625
♪ Get rid of him ♪
945
00:55:51,416 --> 00:55:52,666
♪ Get rid of him ♪
946
00:55:55,416 --> 00:55:56,500
♪ Get rid of him ♪
947
00:55:57,125 --> 00:55:58,375
[flicking cigarette]
948
00:55:59,125 --> 00:56:00,791
♪ Oh ♪
949
00:56:00,875 --> 00:56:04,000
[Marie singing along] ♪ But I love him ♪
950
00:56:04,083 --> 00:56:07,791
♪ And there's nothing I can do ♪
951
00:56:08,416 --> 00:56:10,250
-♪ Get rid of him ♪
-♪ Uh-uh ♪
952
00:56:10,333 --> 00:56:12,541
-♪ Get rid of him ♪
-♪ Oh, no ♪
953
00:56:12,625 --> 00:56:16,291
♪ Do you really mean to say
That you can still go on this way? ♪
954
00:56:16,375 --> 00:56:18,166
-♪ Get rid of him ♪
-♪ No! ♪
955
00:56:18,250 --> 00:56:20,375
-♪ Get rid of him ♪
-♪ Oh, no ♪
956
00:56:20,458 --> 00:56:22,083
-♪ Get rid of him ♪
-♪ Uh-uh ♪
957
00:56:22,166 --> 00:56:24,000
♪ Get rid of him ♪
958
00:56:24,083 --> 00:56:28,291
♪ I know he's out to break my heart
And he'll rip my dreams apart ♪
959
00:56:28,375 --> 00:56:31,916
♪ But I love that fella so
And I'll never let him go ♪
960
00:56:32,000 --> 00:56:33,916
-♪ Get rid of him ♪
-♪ Oh, no ♪
961
00:56:34,000 --> 00:56:36,166
-♪ Get rid of him ♪
-♪ Oh, no ♪
962
00:56:36,250 --> 00:56:37,875
-♪ Get rid of him ♪
-♪ No ♪
963
00:56:37,958 --> 00:56:39,875
-♪ Get rid of him ♪
-♪ Oh, no, no, no ♪
964
00:56:39,958 --> 00:56:41,541
-♪ Get rid of him ♪
-♪ Oh, no, no, no… ♪
965
00:56:41,625 --> 00:56:42,458
[Malcolm] Fuck!
966
00:56:44,833 --> 00:56:46,791
That fucking piece of shit!
967
00:56:49,541 --> 00:56:53,416
Fuck you! Fuck you!
Fuck you! Fuck you! Fuck you!
968
00:56:54,208 --> 00:56:56,458
Fucking piece of shit! Fuck you!
969
00:56:56,541 --> 00:56:59,083
-[Marie] What's going on?
-Fuckin' LA Times review's up.
970
00:56:59,166 --> 00:57:01,791
-[Marie] Oh, shit. What does it say?
-I don't know. Fucking Internet.
971
00:57:01,875 --> 00:57:03,166
-[Marie] Is it good?
-Hold on.
972
00:57:03,250 --> 00:57:05,208
-[Marie] Who sent it to you?
-No one. I found it.
973
00:57:05,291 --> 00:57:08,000
-[Marie] How come no one sent it?
-Marie, stop. It's loading.
974
00:57:08,083 --> 00:57:09,750
[Marie] All right. What's the headline?
975
00:57:09,833 --> 00:57:13,708
Oh, gotta pay a fucking paywall now?
A fucking paywall? Really?
976
00:57:13,791 --> 00:57:14,833
[Marie] When was it posted?
977
00:57:14,916 --> 00:57:18,458
Dollar-ninety-nine a fucking month.
Twenty minutes ago.
978
00:57:18,541 --> 00:57:21,750
And no one sent it to you?
How come no one sent it to you?
979
00:57:21,833 --> 00:57:23,666
Shit. Where's my fucking wallet?
980
00:57:23,750 --> 00:57:25,875
You don't have your credit card
saved in your phone?
981
00:57:25,958 --> 00:57:27,041
-[Malcolm] No!
-Why?
982
00:57:27,125 --> 00:57:29,958
-Because I don't trust that shit.
-Really?
983
00:57:30,041 --> 00:57:33,083
-Marie, stop.
-I'm sorry. Okay. Okay.
984
00:57:34,750 --> 00:57:36,208
Did what's-her-name write it?
985
00:57:36,291 --> 00:57:37,583
-[Malcolm] The white girl?
-Yeah.
986
00:57:37,666 --> 00:57:40,083
-[Malcolm] Yeah.
-Then it's gotta be positive.
987
00:57:40,166 --> 00:57:43,000
[Malcolm] Shit, I hope so.
Where's my motherfuckin' wallet?
988
00:57:43,083 --> 00:57:44,791
[Marie] Did you check the bedroom?
989
00:57:47,625 --> 00:57:49,083
-[Malcolm] What?
-Check the bedroom?
990
00:57:49,166 --> 00:57:52,708
-Yeah, I checked the fucking bedroom!
-Okay. Well, then did you check the bar?
991
00:57:53,208 --> 00:57:54,041
[Malcolm mumbles]
992
00:57:54,125 --> 00:57:56,958
I checked the fucking bar too, Marie!
Where the fuck is the…
993
00:57:57,041 --> 00:57:59,333
Where the fuck is the…
Oh, I got it. I got it.
994
00:57:59,416 --> 00:58:02,708
-Got it? Where was it?
-Doesn't matter.
995
00:58:02,791 --> 00:58:03,625
[Marie] Mmm.
996
00:58:06,083 --> 00:58:08,000
[Malcolm breathing heavily]
997
00:58:08,083 --> 00:58:11,916
Oh, shit! Where the fuck is my phone?
998
00:58:12,000 --> 00:58:13,333
-Malcolm.
-Where's my phone?
999
00:58:13,416 --> 00:58:14,791
-Malcolm. Malcolm?
-What?
1000
00:58:14,875 --> 00:58:16,666
It's right here. It's right here.
1001
00:58:16,750 --> 00:58:17,708
Calm down.
1002
00:58:21,458 --> 00:58:23,041
"Imani review."
1003
00:58:23,125 --> 00:58:24,750
"A cinematic tour de force
1004
00:58:24,833 --> 00:58:28,125
takes aim at the twin horrors
of healthcare and racism,
1005
00:58:28,208 --> 00:58:32,166
in Malcolm Elliot's rebellious,
jazzy directorial debut."
1006
00:58:33,083 --> 00:58:34,833
-I fucking hate this woman.
-[chuckles]
1007
00:58:34,916 --> 00:58:36,250
Who wants to see that film?
1008
00:58:36,333 --> 00:58:38,125
"Cinematic tour de force" is all I heard.
1009
00:58:38,208 --> 00:58:41,166
-You didn't hear "jazzy"?
-No, I heard "jazzy," too.
1010
00:58:41,250 --> 00:58:44,333
"Like the opening Steadicam shot."
It's a dolly, you fucking idiot.
1011
00:58:44,416 --> 00:58:46,458
"Through the streets of Bed-Stuy,
we know one thing
1012
00:58:46,541 --> 00:58:49,458
about our slender protagonist Imani.
She marches to her own beat."
1013
00:58:49,541 --> 00:58:51,791
"She sets the tone,
the atmosphere, the vibe."
1014
00:58:51,875 --> 00:58:54,875
"She may slink and slide through
halfway houses and in-patient hospitals,
1015
00:58:54,958 --> 00:58:57,333
but make no mistake,
as the title suggests,
1016
00:58:57,416 --> 00:59:00,833
this is her film, her world, her turf.
Until it's not."
1017
00:59:00,916 --> 00:59:03,208
"If you can't tell
by the rhythm of my white girl words,
1018
00:59:03,291 --> 00:59:04,750
you are in for a Black film."
1019
00:59:04,833 --> 00:59:07,458
[chuckling] The synopsis.
Boring, boring, boring.
1020
00:59:07,541 --> 00:59:11,500
The only reason you know it's 2-perf 35 is
because I said it at the premier, dipshit.
1021
00:59:11,583 --> 00:59:12,666
"Positive…"
1022
00:59:12,750 --> 00:59:14,708
"Leading to a harrowing
and indelible scene
1023
00:59:14,791 --> 00:59:17,083
where Imani overdoses
at a Chinatown market,
1024
00:59:17,166 --> 00:59:19,458
and that's where Elliot's
true target becomes clear."
1025
00:59:19,541 --> 00:59:22,833
"This is a film about how the American
healthcare system treats women of color."
1026
00:59:22,916 --> 00:59:24,208
And at this precise moment,
1027
00:59:24,291 --> 00:59:26,791
every Negro who subscribes
to the LA Times just said,
1028
00:59:26,875 --> 00:59:28,750
"Then why the fuck
do I need to see this film?"
1029
00:59:28,833 --> 00:59:31,333
Just 'cause the film doesn't star
anybody that looks like her
1030
00:59:31,416 --> 00:59:32,833
doesn't mean it's political.
1031
00:59:32,916 --> 00:59:36,333
-What's wrong with being political?
-Political films are exhausting.
1032
00:59:36,416 --> 00:59:37,958
[Marie] You love political films.
1033
00:59:38,041 --> 00:59:40,958
Not the ones the white woman
from the LA Times calls political.
1034
00:59:41,041 --> 00:59:42,583
I'm sure she loves Do The Right Thing.
1035
00:59:42,666 --> 00:59:46,416
Made at a time when politics weren't cool.
That's what made it so revolutionary.
1036
00:59:46,500 --> 00:59:48,541
"When Imani is placed under 5150,
1037
00:59:48,625 --> 00:59:50,541
a term for people
being held against their will
1038
00:59:50,625 --> 00:59:52,416
and being a danger
to themselves and others,
1039
00:59:52,500 --> 00:59:55,875
after a harrowing scene
with a pair of nail scissors, she…"
1040
00:59:55,958 --> 00:59:58,916
"She's placed
under the care of friendly doctor
1041
00:59:59,000 --> 01:00:02,458
played by… TV show fame…"
1042
01:00:02,541 --> 01:00:05,125
"But Elliot knows
the waters he's wading into,
1043
01:00:05,208 --> 01:00:09,291
and carefully, brilliantly subverts
the white savior trope."
1044
01:00:09,375 --> 01:00:11,625
Oh, she's on one now. This fucking stupid…
1045
01:00:11,708 --> 01:00:14,666
"Later, when Imani finds herself, uh…
1046
01:00:14,750 --> 01:00:17,750
at her ex-boyfriend's house
begging for a fix,
1047
01:00:17,833 --> 01:00:21,083
Elliot uses tight lenses."
It's the fucking same lens.
1048
01:00:21,166 --> 01:00:22,833
"Claustrophobia…"
1049
01:00:22,916 --> 01:00:25,125
"One begins to question his intentions
1050
01:00:25,208 --> 01:00:28,375
in reveling in the trauma
of his Black female heroine for so long."
1051
01:00:28,458 --> 01:00:30,208
"It's a scene
better implied than depicted."
1052
01:00:30,291 --> 01:00:32,416
"If not for the restraint
of his own picture,
1053
01:00:32,500 --> 01:00:34,833
then merely to separate itself
from an exhaustive history
1054
01:00:34,916 --> 01:00:37,583
that depicts gendered violence
against women of fucking color."
1055
01:00:37,666 --> 01:00:40,583
Are you fucking kidding me?
Are you kidding me, ma'am?
1056
01:00:40,666 --> 01:00:44,125
Are you fucking-- In the next line!
Oh, shit! Oh, shit!
1057
01:00:44,208 --> 01:00:47,041
She says it's a "genuine masterwork."
A genuine fucking--
1058
01:00:47,125 --> 01:00:50,416
I can't read this fucking shit anymore.
It's too fucking moronic.
1059
01:00:50,500 --> 01:00:54,416
The fact that the LA Times will
hire such a fucking halfwit is beyond me.
1060
01:00:54,500 --> 01:00:57,791
First she says that I brilliantly
subvert the white savior trope.
1061
01:00:57,875 --> 01:00:59,000
She is a savior.
1062
01:00:59,083 --> 01:01:00,791
She's trying to save her,
1063
01:01:00,875 --> 01:01:03,333
so how the fuck
did I subvert it, lady? How?
1064
01:01:03,416 --> 01:01:05,416
You wanna know how?
It's because I'm Black!
1065
01:01:05,500 --> 01:01:08,041
If I was white,
she would've said I fell for the trope.
1066
01:01:08,125 --> 01:01:10,708
But because I'm a man,
she can question my intention
1067
01:01:10,791 --> 01:01:13,250
saying that I'm reveling
in the trauma of a woman.
1068
01:01:13,333 --> 01:01:14,625
"Better implied than depicted."
1069
01:01:14,708 --> 01:01:17,791
The fuck out of here! Why?
Because Taylor took her shirt off?
1070
01:01:17,875 --> 01:01:21,083
I'm sure she just doesn't think
that the nudity was necessary.
1071
01:01:21,166 --> 01:01:22,625
None of it is necessary, Marie.
1072
01:01:22,708 --> 01:01:24,416
None of this shit is necessary.
1073
01:01:24,500 --> 01:01:28,833
Movement, blocking, lighting,
fucking digital versus film.
1074
01:01:28,916 --> 01:01:31,625
This cut here, that cut here.
Let's pan. Two-shot.
1075
01:01:31,708 --> 01:01:33,916
None of this shit matters.
It's all about what you want.
1076
01:01:34,000 --> 01:01:36,833
But my fucking problem with her
before she even wrote this dumb-ass,
1077
01:01:36,916 --> 01:01:40,000
bitch-ass, pussy-ass review is
the same after readin' this cock-sucking,
1078
01:01:40,083 --> 01:01:42,041
-motherfucking, dog-dick review.
-[giggles]
1079
01:01:42,125 --> 01:01:45,083
She's not looking at the film.
The ideas in it,
1080
01:01:45,166 --> 01:01:46,875
the emotions, or the craft.
1081
01:01:46,958 --> 01:01:49,375
Cinema doesn't need
to have a fucking message.
1082
01:01:49,458 --> 01:01:51,833
It needs to have a heart and electricity.
1083
01:01:51,916 --> 01:01:54,791
Morons like this
sap the world of its mystery
1084
01:01:54,875 --> 01:01:58,000
because they need everything
spelled out with fucking A-B-C blocks.
1085
01:01:58,083 --> 01:02:01,500
And they're terrified to embrace
anything potentially dangerous
1086
01:02:01,583 --> 01:02:03,750
because they're trying
to predict the culture.
1087
01:02:03,833 --> 01:02:07,750
This fucking bobblehead shouldn't be
writing for the LA fucking Times.
1088
01:02:07,833 --> 01:02:11,000
She should be holding
smiling sun placards for the local news
1089
01:02:11,083 --> 01:02:13,958
because all she is,
is a motherfucking weatherman!
1090
01:02:16,125 --> 01:02:17,583
Or weatherwoman.
1091
01:02:18,916 --> 01:02:20,041
Whatever.
1092
01:02:21,333 --> 01:02:24,250
Fucking… Dorothy-ass…
1093
01:02:28,000 --> 01:02:29,166
Malcolm.
1094
01:02:30,000 --> 01:02:31,000
What?
1095
01:02:32,083 --> 01:02:34,791
She did call it a genuine masterwork.
1096
01:02:37,666 --> 01:02:38,958
I don't give a fuck!
1097
01:02:39,500 --> 01:02:41,625
Unlike her, at least I'm consistent.
1098
01:02:42,166 --> 01:02:43,916
You can't hang everything on identity.
1099
01:02:44,000 --> 01:02:47,333
You can't say that I brilliantly
subverted this trope 'cause I'm Black,
1100
01:02:47,416 --> 01:02:50,000
but I fell into this one
because I'm a fucking man!
1101
01:02:50,083 --> 01:02:51,750
Identities are constantly shifting.
1102
01:02:51,833 --> 01:02:54,958
Does the male gaze exist
if the filmmaker's gay and not straight?
1103
01:02:55,041 --> 01:02:57,208
And to what degree?
What if they're asexual?
1104
01:02:57,291 --> 01:02:59,666
What if they're transitioning
and you don't even know it?
1105
01:02:59,750 --> 01:03:03,125
You can only look back at things
and wonder what the fuck it all means!
1106
01:03:03,791 --> 01:03:07,750
I mean, why did Ben Hecht and Selznick,
two fucking Jewish men,
1107
01:03:07,833 --> 01:03:10,916
spend so much time on Gone With the Wind?
1108
01:03:11,000 --> 01:03:12,125
To this day,
1109
01:03:12,208 --> 01:03:16,083
no one can explain to me why the fuck
Billy Wilder made Spirit of St. Louis
1110
01:03:16,166 --> 01:03:19,208
and lionized
that Nazi bastard Lindbergh, huh?
1111
01:03:19,291 --> 01:03:22,708
Or why Ida Lupino loved film noir
and fucking violent men.
1112
01:03:22,791 --> 01:03:24,833
Why Ed Wood wore fucking panties?
1113
01:03:24,916 --> 01:03:29,208
He wore panties and made B films
about fucking space aliens.
1114
01:03:29,291 --> 01:03:32,458
Or Elaine May was fascinated
with emotionally stunted men.
1115
01:03:32,541 --> 01:03:34,541
I mean, did she see herself in them?
1116
01:03:35,208 --> 01:03:38,625
Did she hate them in real life, but wanted
to get to know them through the work?
1117
01:03:38,708 --> 01:03:42,875
The fact that Barry Jenkins isn't gay,
is that what made Moonlight so universal?
1118
01:03:42,958 --> 01:03:46,041
Or was being gay the reason Cukor
empathized with women more than men?
1119
01:03:46,125 --> 01:03:47,750
It's all a mystery is the point!
1120
01:03:47,833 --> 01:03:50,625
What drives a filmmaker?
What drives an artist?
1121
01:03:50,708 --> 01:03:52,458
[breathing heavily]
1122
01:03:52,541 --> 01:03:56,625
I mean, why did Pontecorvo,
a fucking rich Italian Jewish man…
1123
01:03:56,708 --> 01:04:00,708
Why did he fucking feel such a kinship
to Algerian Muslim guerrilla fighters
1124
01:04:00,791 --> 01:04:02,916
that he fucking made Battle of Algiers?
1125
01:04:03,000 --> 01:04:05,416
A fucking classic! Tell me that!
1126
01:04:05,500 --> 01:04:07,625
Can you tell me that? Fucking Karen!
1127
01:04:07,708 --> 01:04:11,666
Can you tell me that? You can't, can you?
Because why? 'Cause nobody knows!
1128
01:04:11,750 --> 01:04:15,750
Who the fuck knows? Who the fuck knows?
Why did I shoot the scene the way I did?
1129
01:04:15,833 --> 01:04:17,791
Is it because I'm a man,
because I'm straight?
1130
01:04:17,875 --> 01:04:19,708
Is it because I'm desensitized to violence
1131
01:04:19,791 --> 01:04:23,000
or is it because I believe that
if you witness trauma onscreen,
1132
01:04:23,083 --> 01:04:25,750
the audience should also
feel that fucking trauma?
1133
01:04:25,833 --> 01:04:27,833
That is the mystery of art. Of film.
1134
01:04:27,916 --> 01:04:31,125
What drives someone to make something
and fucking say something.
1135
01:04:31,208 --> 01:04:34,750
Now, you can criticize this system,
which, like every fucking system,
1136
01:04:34,833 --> 01:04:36,041
is white as fuck,
1137
01:04:36,125 --> 01:04:38,750
and in our business,
fucking male and white as fuck!
1138
01:04:38,833 --> 01:04:40,500
I mean, goddamn!
1139
01:04:40,583 --> 01:04:42,583
I've been waiting my whole life,
I've been askin',
1140
01:04:42,666 --> 01:04:44,375
"Where the fuck
are all the Black filmmakers,
1141
01:04:44,458 --> 01:04:46,916
'cause I'm gettin' sick and tired
of these little British boys
1142
01:04:47,000 --> 01:04:50,750
runnin' around here all in they feelings
trying to overcome a fucking birth defect
1143
01:04:50,833 --> 01:04:52,875
to save the fucking Queen from Hitler."
1144
01:04:52,958 --> 01:04:55,416
-[chuckling]
-Just do me a fucking favor, all right?
1145
01:04:55,500 --> 01:04:58,666
Ban every fucking film
with a postscript, and we'll be good.
1146
01:04:59,583 --> 01:05:02,125
We'll be fucking great!
1147
01:05:02,208 --> 01:05:06,625
But to write shit like this?
To write this bullshit?
1148
01:05:06,708 --> 01:05:09,708
To box people in
because you don't have the love of film,
1149
01:05:09,791 --> 01:05:12,916
because you don't have the mind
to critique the form, medium, technique.
1150
01:05:13,000 --> 01:05:15,291
You don't have the words
to describe the emotions
1151
01:05:15,375 --> 01:05:17,708
or too much fear
that you're not gonna get clicks,
1152
01:05:17,791 --> 01:05:20,291
or too much fear
that the mob's gonna turn on you.
1153
01:05:20,375 --> 01:05:23,416
Fuck you for inhibiting
the ability for artists to dream about
1154
01:05:23,500 --> 01:05:25,666
what life may be like
for other fucking people.
1155
01:05:25,750 --> 01:05:28,541
Fuck you! Twice! With a sick cactus dick!
1156
01:05:28,625 --> 01:05:31,791
Even if you come up short,
even if you could do better, fuck you!
1157
01:05:31,875 --> 01:05:33,666
You're the reason they make this stale,
1158
01:05:33,750 --> 01:05:35,833
safe, stagnant turgid shit
in the first place!
1159
01:05:35,916 --> 01:05:38,375
You're the reason! Not me!
You're the reason!
1160
01:05:39,875 --> 01:05:43,666
I mean, you should be fucking bold!
You should be fucking reckless!
1161
01:05:43,750 --> 01:05:45,958
People should be fucking reckless!
1162
01:05:46,041 --> 01:05:48,208
They should be yelling
at the top of their lungs!
1163
01:05:48,291 --> 01:05:52,375
Hey, Karen! Hey, Al!
1164
01:05:52,458 --> 01:05:55,666
I hear you, and I don't give a fuck!
1165
01:05:56,291 --> 01:05:58,166
Because they're not gonna get any better
1166
01:05:58,250 --> 01:06:02,083
until they start rebelling against this
purist, moralistic, academic nonsense
1167
01:06:02,166 --> 01:06:04,916
in the same way Spike Lee
rebelled against the white system
1168
01:06:05,000 --> 01:06:06,541
when he made Do the Right Thing.
1169
01:06:06,625 --> 01:06:08,833
Normally, I wish death
upon someone like this.
1170
01:06:08,916 --> 01:06:11,541
Someone who lacks
the fucking imagination like this.
1171
01:06:11,625 --> 01:06:14,416
But instead, I'm gonna pray fucking hard,
1172
01:06:14,500 --> 01:06:17,625
the way my mama taught me,
that she gets fucking carpal tunnel,
1173
01:06:17,708 --> 01:06:19,541
until her hands atrophy and cramp
1174
01:06:19,625 --> 01:06:24,833
and she can no longer write nonsensical
fucking garbage like this anymore!
1175
01:06:24,916 --> 01:06:26,333
[panting]
1176
01:06:26,416 --> 01:06:27,833
-[grunts]
-[Marie] Mmm.
1177
01:06:27,916 --> 01:06:29,291
[laughing]
1178
01:06:31,375 --> 01:06:33,083
Oh, my God.
1179
01:06:36,625 --> 01:06:39,666
So this is what happens
when you get a good review?
1180
01:06:43,583 --> 01:06:45,708
-You're fucking crazy.
-[both chuckle]
1181
01:06:45,791 --> 01:06:47,666
I'm ser-- You're delirious.
1182
01:06:47,750 --> 01:06:49,250
-[Malcolm grunts]
-[chuckles]
1183
01:06:50,291 --> 01:06:53,125
Honestly, Malcolm,
you are a true insane person.
1184
01:06:54,333 --> 01:06:56,916
I know. I know. I just…
I'm tired of fighting, Marie.
1185
01:06:57,000 --> 01:06:59,625
That was a fight
you had entirely with yourself.
1186
01:06:59,708 --> 01:07:01,458
[both chuckling]
1187
01:07:02,833 --> 01:07:04,500
You think you're the first writer
1188
01:07:04,583 --> 01:07:07,666
in the history of writing
to have this issue with critics?
1189
01:07:07,750 --> 01:07:08,666
'Course not.
1190
01:07:08,750 --> 01:07:11,458
Of course not,
'cause it's all the same bullshit.
1191
01:07:11,541 --> 01:07:14,291
So, what, Malcolm? You wanna make movies,
1192
01:07:14,375 --> 01:07:17,333
and no one's allowed to say
anything bad about them?
1193
01:07:17,416 --> 01:07:20,083
Give me a break.
1194
01:07:20,166 --> 01:07:22,583
[mockingly] "Oh, no!
Someone attacked my movie."
1195
01:07:22,666 --> 01:07:24,750
Well, fuck these lazy-ass critics.
1196
01:07:24,833 --> 01:07:30,000
Malcolm, you are not making pottery
for a living, okay?
1197
01:07:30,083 --> 01:07:34,708
You are a filmmaker,
and filmmaking is the most capitalistic,
1198
01:07:34,791 --> 01:07:37,708
mainstream fucking art form
on the planet Earth.
1199
01:07:37,791 --> 01:07:40,083
No matter how many times
Taylor told E! News
1200
01:07:40,166 --> 01:07:41,916
that she was a fucking communist.
1201
01:07:42,000 --> 01:07:44,000
-She what?
-Or a Maoist.
1202
01:07:44,083 --> 01:07:45,708
-Come on.
-It was something like that.
1203
01:07:45,791 --> 01:07:48,208
She might've talked about
the redistribution of wealth,
1204
01:07:48,291 --> 01:07:49,333
lack of social programs.
1205
01:07:49,416 --> 01:07:51,916
-While selling a film?
-The mental healthcare industry--
1206
01:07:52,000 --> 01:07:53,583
-For $15 a ticket?
-I'm just saying--
1207
01:07:53,666 --> 01:07:54,791
On E! News.
1208
01:07:55,458 --> 01:07:56,875
It was Entertainment Tonight.
1209
01:07:58,250 --> 01:08:00,416
And you wonder
why the white girl's talking about
1210
01:08:00,500 --> 01:08:02,458
the mental healthcare system
in her review.
1211
01:08:03,958 --> 01:08:04,875
Because…
1212
01:08:04,958 --> 01:08:06,541
-[Marie] Mm-hmm.
-[mumbling]
1213
01:08:06,625 --> 01:08:09,416
Oh, she… Oh, shit, you're right.
1214
01:08:09,500 --> 01:08:10,333
Right?
1215
01:08:10,875 --> 01:08:12,625
Oh. [chuckles]
1216
01:08:12,708 --> 01:08:14,458
-Yep. [chuckles]
-[stomping feet]
1217
01:08:14,541 --> 01:08:16,625
I hate to break it to you, but uh…
1218
01:08:17,583 --> 01:08:19,708
no one in this game is a radical.
1219
01:08:19,791 --> 01:08:23,333
-Oh, Taylor's pretty radical.
-Bullshit. She likes to play one on TV.
1220
01:08:23,416 --> 01:08:24,416
What do you mean?
1221
01:08:25,750 --> 01:08:27,541
All of y'all are
a bunch of hookers and hoes.
1222
01:08:27,625 --> 01:08:30,083
-You calling me a ho?
-Yes, I am calling you a ho.
1223
01:08:30,166 --> 01:08:31,916
-[chuckles]
-[laughing] Fuck you.
1224
01:08:32,000 --> 01:08:34,583
'Cause you're a ho!
What? You are. That's fine.
1225
01:08:35,375 --> 01:08:37,416
That's why you're hell-bent
on sounding smart,
1226
01:08:37,500 --> 01:08:40,000
'cause you're compensating
for the fact that you're a ho.
1227
01:08:40,083 --> 01:08:42,625
Instead of just understanding that…
1228
01:08:42,708 --> 01:08:45,583
this is just how
the world of ho-dom turns.
1229
01:08:45,666 --> 01:08:49,250
You know, you got an actress
in a $2,000 dress,
1230
01:08:49,333 --> 01:08:51,083
talkin' about socialism on a red carpet
1231
01:08:51,166 --> 01:08:53,625
because she's too afraid
to admit that, guess what,
1232
01:08:53,708 --> 01:08:55,708
she's just… she's just a fuckin' actor.
1233
01:08:56,375 --> 01:08:57,750
There's no shame in that.
1234
01:08:58,333 --> 01:09:00,875
And then you got
every entertainment outlet
1235
01:09:00,958 --> 01:09:04,625
running with her call to arms,
her viva la revolution.
1236
01:09:04,708 --> 01:09:07,708
Not because they actually care
or want to spread the message.
1237
01:09:07,791 --> 01:09:12,250
But because they know that there's
nothing that sells more than disgust.
1238
01:09:14,000 --> 01:09:16,000
-Hmm.
-That's what gets the clicks.
1239
01:09:16,083 --> 01:09:19,041
And you dumbasses
fall for that shit every time.
1240
01:09:20,208 --> 01:09:22,666
Honestly, nobody cares
what you have to say.
1241
01:09:23,625 --> 01:09:24,625
They don't.
1242
01:09:25,208 --> 01:09:27,166
You guys play fucking dress-up
for a living.
1243
01:09:27,250 --> 01:09:28,125
[Malcolm scoffs]
1244
01:09:28,708 --> 01:09:33,916
This is some only-in-America, ho-ass shit.
1245
01:09:34,000 --> 01:09:35,333
[laughing]
1246
01:09:35,416 --> 01:09:37,875
And all of you are guilty.
1247
01:09:38,833 --> 01:09:42,791
You know? So just stay in your lane.
Keep doing your ho shit. It's fine.
1248
01:09:43,958 --> 01:09:45,125
[Malcolm mumbles]
1249
01:09:45,208 --> 01:09:48,416
Malcolm, you got
a great review with an asterisk.
1250
01:09:50,416 --> 01:09:53,041
Boo-fucking-hoo.
1251
01:09:57,500 --> 01:09:58,708
I'm a ho, huh?
1252
01:09:58,791 --> 01:10:01,125
Mm-hmm. Most definitely.
1253
01:10:03,416 --> 01:10:06,333
-I love you.
-Don't manipulate me.
1254
01:10:06,416 --> 01:10:07,500
[kissing]
1255
01:10:07,583 --> 01:10:09,583
[slow jazz music playing]
1256
01:10:47,958 --> 01:10:49,250
-Okay.
-Okay.
1257
01:10:49,333 --> 01:10:51,583
-Okay. I got a gameplan.
-Okay.
1258
01:10:52,333 --> 01:10:54,333
-I love what's happening.
-[chuckles]
1259
01:10:55,208 --> 01:10:57,250
Oh, my God. And thank God. I just…
1260
01:10:57,333 --> 01:10:59,333
-Been wanting to do this all night.
-[giggles]
1261
01:10:59,416 --> 01:11:00,416
Here's the gameplan.
1262
01:11:01,000 --> 01:11:02,250
I'm gonna go from here…
1263
01:11:03,375 --> 01:11:04,458
to the bathroom.
1264
01:11:05,291 --> 01:11:06,833
-Because I have to pee.
-Okay.
1265
01:11:06,916 --> 01:11:08,333
-Okay. Is it okay?
-That's fine.
1266
01:11:08,416 --> 01:11:12,083
And let's just keep it positive.
Happy thoughts.
1267
01:11:12,791 --> 01:11:14,958
You stay right here.
Don't move. You look beautiful.
1268
01:11:15,041 --> 01:11:16,791
-Stay right here. Okay?
-Okay.
1269
01:11:16,875 --> 01:11:19,083
-You stay right here.
-Okay.
1270
01:11:21,875 --> 01:11:22,833
Hey.
1271
01:11:24,333 --> 01:11:26,375
-Oh, my God. Oh, my…
-[chuckles]
1272
01:11:26,458 --> 01:11:28,458
[footsteps receding]
1273
01:11:51,791 --> 01:11:53,500
[urinating]
1274
01:11:55,541 --> 01:11:56,500
[toilet flushes]
1275
01:11:58,583 --> 01:12:00,416
-[faucet squeaks]
-[water running]
1276
01:12:17,833 --> 01:12:18,833
[Marie] Malcolm?
1277
01:12:23,458 --> 01:12:24,291
Yeah?
1278
01:12:27,958 --> 01:12:30,291
Can I ask you a question
and you promise to answer
1279
01:12:30,375 --> 01:12:32,125
without making me feel like shit?
1280
01:12:33,958 --> 01:12:35,500
[sighs deeply]
1281
01:12:35,583 --> 01:12:36,500
Yeah.
1282
01:12:45,208 --> 01:12:46,708
Why didn't you cast me?
1283
01:12:57,500 --> 01:12:59,791
When you first wrote it,
you wrote it for me.
1284
01:13:02,916 --> 01:13:04,666
So why didn't you cast me?
1285
01:13:05,583 --> 01:13:06,708
[clicks tongue]
1286
01:13:11,666 --> 01:13:14,208
So that's what this whole thing
has been about tonight?
1287
01:13:15,916 --> 01:13:16,791
[softly] No.
1288
01:13:16,875 --> 01:13:18,500
-Bullshit, Marie.
-It's not.
1289
01:13:18,583 --> 01:13:21,458
-You're lying. Yes, it is.
-[voice shaking] I'm not lying.
1290
01:13:24,041 --> 01:13:27,875
At some point, Malcolm, this was
something that we were gonna do together.
1291
01:13:30,041 --> 01:13:32,083
And I don't know when that changed.
1292
01:13:33,541 --> 01:13:37,375
I don't know when, I don't know how,
I just know that I was in that audience…
1293
01:13:38,791 --> 01:13:40,625
and I thought to myself, "Wow."
1294
01:13:44,083 --> 01:13:46,583
"I did not mean to give all that away."
1295
01:13:46,666 --> 01:13:48,125
[breath trembling]
1296
01:13:50,125 --> 01:13:53,250
And I don't wanna get
into all the reasons why you cast Taylor,
1297
01:13:54,833 --> 01:13:56,833
but you're so good at fighting.
1298
01:13:57,666 --> 01:14:00,041
You're so good at fighting.
You fought to make the movie,
1299
01:14:00,125 --> 01:14:03,750
to make it the way you wanted to make it.
So why didn't you fight for me?
1300
01:14:08,750 --> 01:14:11,208
Because I would have been good. [sniffles]
1301
01:14:12,916 --> 01:14:14,166
I would have.
1302
01:14:16,125 --> 01:14:17,500
Maybe even better.
1303
01:14:20,166 --> 01:14:21,166
So there it is.
1304
01:14:22,333 --> 01:14:25,083
-What?
-The fucking truth.
1305
01:14:25,166 --> 01:14:28,583
Leave it to you to spend the entire night
burning it all to the ground
1306
01:14:28,666 --> 01:14:32,708
only to reveal that in the end,
you're just jealous.
1307
01:14:32,791 --> 01:14:34,291
-I'm not jealous.
-Yes, you are.
1308
01:14:34,375 --> 01:14:36,208
-I'm not jealous.
-Of course you are.
1309
01:14:36,291 --> 01:14:39,250
The feeling that I'm feeling right now
is deeper than that.
1310
01:14:40,541 --> 01:14:42,333
It's not jealousy. [crying]
1311
01:14:42,416 --> 01:14:44,250
Oh, come on. Give me a break, Marie.
1312
01:14:44,333 --> 01:14:46,750
It's the fact that
I can't tell my story anymore.
1313
01:14:47,833 --> 01:14:52,958
I can't articulate all the fucking chaos
that's going on in here
1314
01:14:53,041 --> 01:14:54,250
because you already did.
1315
01:14:54,333 --> 01:14:55,458
[sniffles]
1316
01:14:55,541 --> 01:14:57,583
You already did and Taylor already did.
1317
01:14:58,833 --> 01:15:00,875
I know it's not solely mine.
1318
01:15:01,583 --> 01:15:02,708
I know that.
1319
01:15:03,500 --> 01:15:05,875
I know it happened to both of us.
1320
01:15:05,958 --> 01:15:09,083
But the difference is you were able
to take all the ugly shit
1321
01:15:09,166 --> 01:15:10,791
and make it something beautiful.
1322
01:15:13,500 --> 01:15:14,833
Something good.
1323
01:15:15,708 --> 01:15:16,916
Something that…
1324
01:15:18,541 --> 01:15:20,250
that could move people.
1325
01:15:21,916 --> 01:15:23,875
But, Malcolm, I'm stuck with it.
1326
01:15:33,083 --> 01:15:34,125
Yeah.
1327
01:15:34,208 --> 01:15:37,041
I just wish it was something
we could have done together.
1328
01:15:37,541 --> 01:15:39,916
And to be brutally honest, yes…
1329
01:15:41,375 --> 01:15:42,833
I would have been better.
1330
01:15:44,666 --> 01:15:46,166
Because I experienced it.
1331
01:15:47,541 --> 01:15:48,625
I lived it.
1332
01:15:52,541 --> 01:15:56,000
Not only would I have been better,
I would have made your film better.
1333
01:15:58,250 --> 01:15:59,541
You gave up acting.
1334
01:15:59,625 --> 01:16:02,291
When I got the film financed,
I asked you to audition.
1335
01:16:02,375 --> 01:16:06,416
You said yes, but you were reluctant.
You have talent, but that's not enough.
1336
01:16:07,250 --> 01:16:09,416
It's not enough.
You have to want it, Marie.
1337
01:16:10,125 --> 01:16:13,333
-Trust me, Malcolm, I wanted this one.
-That's fuckin' bullshit.
1338
01:16:13,416 --> 01:16:16,375
You didn't try, and that's
the harsh reality of all of this.
1339
01:16:16,458 --> 01:16:18,833
That same instinct
that exists in Imani, in you,
1340
01:16:18,916 --> 01:16:22,291
that instinct to fucking self-sabotage,
1341
01:16:22,375 --> 01:16:23,500
that didn't go away.
1342
01:16:24,041 --> 01:16:27,916
-I didn't try because you didn't want me.
-Now you wanna play the victim.
1343
01:16:30,458 --> 01:16:33,916
Now you wanna say you felt like
I didn't want you so you didn't try.
1344
01:16:41,333 --> 01:16:43,041
You are fucking intolerable.
1345
01:16:56,000 --> 01:16:57,500
[sighs deeply]
1346
01:17:08,083 --> 01:17:12,000
[Marie] Fucking… You fake-ass,
fraudulent, thievin' fuckin' con man!
1347
01:17:12,083 --> 01:17:15,708
You didn't want me because if you did,
you would have to share the stage.
1348
01:17:15,791 --> 01:17:18,250
You wouldn't be
the sole author of this film.
1349
01:17:18,333 --> 01:17:21,833
It would have a lineage that extended
beyond you and your brilliance,
1350
01:17:21,916 --> 01:17:26,166
because people would ask me and I'd say,
"Yes, this shit happened to me."
1351
01:17:26,250 --> 01:17:29,875
Then all of a sudden everyone would go,
"Is it him or her that's talented?"
1352
01:17:29,958 --> 01:17:33,041
If that's what you have
to tell yourself, then be my guest.
1353
01:17:33,125 --> 01:17:34,375
It's about ownership.
1354
01:17:34,458 --> 01:17:36,291
It's about the illusion you wanna create
1355
01:17:36,375 --> 01:17:38,333
that filmmaking
isn't a collaborative effort.
1356
01:17:38,416 --> 01:17:41,000
It's you, and everybody else
is just following directions.
1357
01:17:41,083 --> 01:17:43,166
-Because if it were me…
-[grunts loudly]
1358
01:17:43,250 --> 01:17:46,541
If it were authentic 'cause of me,
you couldn't swing your dick around!
1359
01:17:46,625 --> 01:17:48,375
That's why you didn't thank me tonight.
1360
01:17:48,458 --> 01:17:51,000
-That's also why you didn't cast me.
-Authenticity.
1361
01:17:51,083 --> 01:17:53,166
-Yeah. Mm-hmm.
-Ain't that the word of the day?
1362
01:17:53,250 --> 01:17:56,208
It's all I heard tonight.
"He's such an authentic filmmaker."
1363
01:17:56,291 --> 01:17:59,125
"The movie is authentic."
"He channeled his voice authentically."
1364
01:17:59,208 --> 01:18:00,833
-Know why people love that word?
-Why?
1365
01:18:00,916 --> 01:18:02,625
They don't know what makes something good.
1366
01:18:02,708 --> 01:18:03,916
I think authenticity is key.
1367
01:18:04,000 --> 01:18:06,208
Of course,
because that's all you have to offer.
1368
01:18:06,291 --> 01:18:08,833
-Anyone, all they have to say.
-It's all I have to offer.
1369
01:18:08,916 --> 01:18:11,416
The only word that people
that don't know shit about film
1370
01:18:11,500 --> 01:18:13,208
feels like they got something to offer…
1371
01:18:13,291 --> 01:18:14,833
No, I have nothing to offer.
1372
01:18:14,916 --> 01:18:18,458
They can't say anything about film,
but they love to talk about authenticity.
1373
01:18:18,541 --> 01:18:19,875
They don't know dick about film.
1374
01:18:19,958 --> 01:18:22,541
About fucking Citizen Kane
or Best Years of Our Lives--
1375
01:18:22,625 --> 01:18:24,625
No one fucking cares about that shit!
1376
01:18:24,708 --> 01:18:28,041
Authenticity. Oh, shit!
They know that shit through and through.
1377
01:18:28,125 --> 01:18:30,875
Authenticity does not matter,
your perspective doesn't--
1378
01:18:30,958 --> 01:18:32,416
You don't fucking have any!
1379
01:18:32,500 --> 01:18:34,833
Recreating reality
doesn't make something interesting.
1380
01:18:34,916 --> 01:18:37,458
It's about your interpretation
about reality.
1381
01:18:37,541 --> 01:18:39,833
-What you feel about reality.
-You're full of shit.
1382
01:18:39,916 --> 01:18:41,250
What you reveal about reality.
1383
01:18:41,333 --> 01:18:43,166
Perspective, your perspective.
1384
01:18:43,250 --> 01:18:46,541
Transcribing a conversation or holding
a camera up and pressing record,
1385
01:18:46,625 --> 01:18:48,541
that's a fucking YouTube video.
1386
01:18:48,625 --> 01:18:50,333
-That's a confession or memoir.
-Okay.
1387
01:18:50,416 --> 01:18:52,500
-We've seen and heard it a thousand times.
-All right.
1388
01:18:52,583 --> 01:18:56,125
Your experience, your life,
your fucking struggle, doesn't matter.
1389
01:18:56,208 --> 01:18:59,791
You've been an addict, boring!
You overdosing, not fucking interesting.
1390
01:18:59,875 --> 01:19:01,875
It's about transferring your emotions
1391
01:19:01,958 --> 01:19:04,583
and all those moments
into something cinematic and moving.
1392
01:19:04,666 --> 01:19:06,416
So, you know what? Good luck, Marie.
1393
01:19:07,958 --> 01:19:09,458
-I hate you!
-I hate you hate too!
1394
01:19:09,541 --> 01:19:11,416
-I hate you more!
-I hate you the most!
1395
01:19:11,500 --> 01:19:13,083
I fucking hate you!
1396
01:19:13,166 --> 01:19:14,958
[both screaming]
1397
01:19:15,041 --> 01:19:16,041
[grunts]
1398
01:19:16,125 --> 01:19:17,083
[screams]
1399
01:19:18,208 --> 01:19:19,541
Fuckin' asshole!
1400
01:19:22,791 --> 01:19:24,625
[Malcolm] Fucking mental patient.
1401
01:19:31,125 --> 01:19:32,541
[exhales deeply]
1402
01:19:40,083 --> 01:19:43,708
["Wasted" by NNAMDÏ playing]
1403
01:19:57,541 --> 01:20:00,916
♪ Tell me what you want me to hear ♪
1404
01:20:05,666 --> 01:20:09,958
♪ 'Cause I ain't got time to waste
I ain't got time to waste ♪
1405
01:20:10,041 --> 01:20:13,875
♪ I don't got, I don't got
I don't got time ♪
1406
01:20:15,041 --> 01:20:18,750
♪ Tell me what you want me to hear ♪
1407
01:20:23,083 --> 01:20:27,375
♪ 'Cause we ain't got time to waste
We ain't got time to waste ♪
1408
01:20:27,458 --> 01:20:31,625
♪ We don't got, we don't got
We don't got time ♪
1409
01:20:32,416 --> 01:20:36,208
♪ Tell me what you want
What you need and what you feel ♪
1410
01:20:36,291 --> 01:20:38,416
♪ I love to hear you speak… ♪
1411
01:20:38,500 --> 01:20:39,458
[song stops abruptly]
1412
01:20:39,541 --> 01:20:41,333
Marie, what are you doing?
1413
01:20:41,416 --> 01:20:44,291
Put the knife down please. Marie?
1414
01:20:46,708 --> 01:20:49,208
[Marie crying] Do you remember
those antidepressants I was on?
1415
01:20:51,875 --> 01:20:53,875
I'm not on them anymore.
1416
01:20:57,125 --> 01:21:00,750
I'm not doing well.
I'm really, really not doing well.
1417
01:21:02,250 --> 01:21:03,333
[sighs]
1418
01:21:05,166 --> 01:21:06,833
I've never been clean.
1419
01:21:08,708 --> 01:21:10,875
And I don't plan on getting clean.
1420
01:21:15,208 --> 01:21:16,541
I'm a piece of shit.
1421
01:21:17,500 --> 01:21:19,625
-I'm a liar.
-[clears throat]
1422
01:21:21,166 --> 01:21:22,583
I cheated on you.
1423
01:21:28,958 --> 01:21:30,625
I fucked your friends.
1424
01:21:32,333 --> 01:21:33,916
[laughing]
1425
01:21:38,708 --> 01:21:40,125
I fucked your friends.
1426
01:21:41,416 --> 01:21:43,833
God, I feel like I'm crazy.
1427
01:21:44,583 --> 01:21:46,166
[chuckling]
1428
01:21:47,416 --> 01:21:48,750
[knife tapping]
1429
01:21:54,583 --> 01:21:56,583
I've stolen from your mother.
1430
01:21:58,291 --> 01:22:00,916
And you know what
the fucked up thing is? [sniffles]
1431
01:22:01,000 --> 01:22:02,375
I don't even care.
1432
01:22:03,375 --> 01:22:04,416
I don't mind.
1433
01:22:05,833 --> 01:22:07,166
Because I deserve it.
1434
01:22:16,041 --> 01:22:18,000
Tell me where the fucking pills are.
1435
01:22:19,541 --> 01:22:21,000
[exhales deeply]
1436
01:22:22,083 --> 01:22:23,750
Tell me where the pills are.
1437
01:22:23,833 --> 01:22:25,916
-Um…
-[knife tapping]
1438
01:22:27,041 --> 01:22:28,166
Mmm.
1439
01:22:32,958 --> 01:22:34,000
[knife scrapes]
1440
01:22:36,416 --> 01:22:37,708
[knife clatters]
1441
01:22:37,791 --> 01:22:40,500
And that, Malcolm,
is what authenticity buys you.
1442
01:22:51,125 --> 01:22:53,708
Well, damn!
Why didn't you do that in the audition?
1443
01:22:56,833 --> 01:22:57,916
[knife scrapes]
1444
01:22:58,625 --> 01:22:59,916
[knife clatters]
1445
01:23:04,541 --> 01:23:05,708
[door creaks]
1446
01:23:09,083 --> 01:23:12,916
You are, by far, the most excruciating,
difficult, stubbornly obnoxious woman
1447
01:23:13,000 --> 01:23:15,041
I've ever met in my entire life.
1448
01:23:15,125 --> 01:23:17,208
I go from wanting
to cut your head off one moment
1449
01:23:17,291 --> 01:23:20,208
to wanting to kiss your beautiful,
stupid little face the next.
1450
01:23:21,083 --> 01:23:22,208
I fucking love you.
1451
01:23:23,000 --> 01:23:23,833
I love you.
1452
01:23:24,750 --> 01:23:27,250
-[kissing] Should we get married?
-Not in the mood.
1453
01:23:27,333 --> 01:23:29,458
I feel like we're gonna
get married and divorced
1454
01:23:29,541 --> 01:23:31,416
a couple times, might as well start now.
1455
01:23:31,500 --> 01:23:32,625
No.
1456
01:23:33,208 --> 01:23:34,291
[grunts]
1457
01:23:34,375 --> 01:23:37,208
-I'm so turned on right now.
-I'm not.
1458
01:23:39,333 --> 01:23:41,875
-[laughing] Fuckin' psychopath!
-[giggles]
1459
01:23:41,958 --> 01:23:44,958
All this madness was about you,
and that scene,
1460
01:23:45,041 --> 01:23:47,166
sayin' to me
that you could do it better than Taylor
1461
01:23:47,250 --> 01:23:49,833
and seed doubt in my mind that,
for the rest of my life,
1462
01:23:49,916 --> 01:23:51,458
-the movie could've been better.
-Mm-mm.
1463
01:23:51,541 --> 01:23:53,541
-Yes. That's exactly what you doin'.
-Mm-mmm. No.
1464
01:23:53,625 --> 01:23:55,083
-[Malcolm] That's bullshit.
-It's not!
1465
01:23:55,166 --> 01:23:56,541
[both laughing]
1466
01:23:57,166 --> 01:23:58,166
[Malcolm] Brilliant!
1467
01:23:58,666 --> 01:23:59,791
[both moaning]
1468
01:24:12,083 --> 01:24:15,041
You know what's interesting
about the white girl from LA Times
1469
01:24:15,125 --> 01:24:16,916
calling out that scene in her review?
1470
01:24:17,000 --> 01:24:18,708
Marie, who cares?
1471
01:24:18,791 --> 01:24:22,500
I mean, I've always said,
it was my least favorite in the film.
1472
01:24:23,416 --> 01:24:24,958
But my favorite in the script.
1473
01:24:25,666 --> 01:24:27,916
Can we talk about this later, please?
1474
01:24:28,000 --> 01:24:30,666
-I think it's important, you know?
-I beg you.
1475
01:24:31,666 --> 01:24:33,500
To look back and wonder why that is.
1476
01:24:36,125 --> 01:24:37,958
-Don't you?
-No.
1477
01:24:38,041 --> 01:24:42,333
Not to strip you of your mystery,
you know, just out of curiosity.
1478
01:24:43,291 --> 01:24:46,708
Out of pursuit of wanting to be,
I don't know, a better fucking artist.
1479
01:24:46,791 --> 01:24:50,000
Oh. You are exhausting.
1480
01:24:51,083 --> 01:24:54,000
You gonna be this exhausting at 70
or will you have exhausted yourself?
1481
01:24:54,083 --> 01:24:55,541
That depends where you are.
1482
01:24:55,625 --> 01:24:57,833
Living with the white girl
from the LA Times
1483
01:24:57,916 --> 01:25:00,583
because at least I can
win an argument against her.
1484
01:25:00,666 --> 01:25:05,166
But, you know. It just made me wonder,
why did I see that scene so differently?
1485
01:25:05,250 --> 01:25:08,166
I don't know. How did you see the scene?
1486
01:25:08,250 --> 01:25:09,458
It was less graphic.
1487
01:25:09,541 --> 01:25:12,416
So what? He doesn't attack Imani?
That's what it was on the page.
1488
01:25:12,500 --> 01:25:16,375
No, he attacks her. I just never thought
that you'd shoot it with her top off.
1489
01:25:16,916 --> 01:25:18,750
-What's the difference?
-Her tits were out.
1490
01:25:18,833 --> 01:25:21,208
-So?
-So, I just feel like you sexualized her.
1491
01:25:21,291 --> 01:25:23,916
If I rolled a camera on you
right now, am I sexualizing you,
1492
01:25:24,000 --> 01:25:26,166
or is this what you have on,
on a Friday night?
1493
01:25:26,250 --> 01:25:27,291
My tits aren't out.
1494
01:25:27,375 --> 01:25:30,083
If you were in a Chuck E. Cheese,
they'd throw your ass out.
1495
01:25:30,166 --> 01:25:32,583
-It was Taylor's idea anyway.
-I'm sure it was.
1496
01:25:33,083 --> 01:25:36,166
Look, it just made
everything more graphic.
1497
01:25:36,666 --> 01:25:38,875
Okay? And I just thought…
1498
01:25:40,083 --> 01:25:42,875
would the scene have been
a bit different if you were a woman?
1499
01:25:43,833 --> 01:25:46,916
Yes, but I also would have shot
the entire movie differently
1500
01:25:47,000 --> 01:25:49,458
because I wouldn't have been me,
I would've been a woman.
1501
01:25:49,541 --> 01:25:51,500
I would've had
a totally different sensibility.
1502
01:25:51,583 --> 01:25:53,583
But that's not how
you judge film intelligently,
1503
01:25:53,666 --> 01:25:57,916
by the 600 trillion different choices
not made due to an intangible
1504
01:25:58,000 --> 01:26:00,416
yet purely hypothetical
assessment of one's identity.
1505
01:26:00,500 --> 01:26:02,791
But rather the choices
actually being fucking made.
1506
01:26:02,875 --> 01:26:05,583
[sighs] Look, I'm not defending her
as a great fuckin' thinker.
1507
01:26:05,666 --> 01:26:07,333
Good. 'Cause she's an idiot.
1508
01:26:07,416 --> 01:26:10,291
I'm just saying… would the movie
have been a little better
1509
01:26:10,375 --> 01:26:12,000
if you had a dash of femininity?
1510
01:26:12,083 --> 01:26:13,666
-Who gives a fuck?
-I do.
1511
01:26:13,791 --> 01:26:15,750
-Fuck.
-I do. I do.
1512
01:26:15,833 --> 01:26:18,208
I do, Malcolm,
because it just made me wonder
1513
01:26:18,291 --> 01:26:20,166
if the problem
she has with you as a filmmaker
1514
01:26:20,250 --> 01:26:22,416
is the same problem
I have with you as a partner.
1515
01:26:23,166 --> 01:26:24,000
Well…
1516
01:26:26,000 --> 01:26:30,583
All that being said and done,
Karen thinks I'm a fucking tour-de-force.
1517
01:26:30,666 --> 01:26:32,833
-[urinating]
-[scoffs] Now you like her review?
1518
01:26:32,916 --> 01:26:36,125
[scoffs] Fucking masterwork is
what you're looking at right now, girl.
1519
01:26:36,208 --> 01:26:38,583
[groans and chuckles]
You're joking, but I'm not.
1520
01:26:38,666 --> 01:26:42,291
That's unfortunate, because I really
can't keep arguing about this shit.
1521
01:26:42,375 --> 01:26:45,041
The more I think about it,
her problem is my problem.
1522
01:26:45,125 --> 01:26:48,666
-Which is what?
-That I'm with you. I haven't walked out.
1523
01:26:48,750 --> 01:26:50,875
I'm not wondering
what other movies are playing.
1524
01:26:50,958 --> 01:26:53,250
I got you. I'm on your side,
and then you just…
1525
01:26:53,333 --> 01:26:55,375
You gotta fucking take shit too far.
1526
01:26:55,458 --> 01:26:56,583
[Malcolm] Come on.
1527
01:26:56,666 --> 01:26:59,833
No, we're in a fight,
maybe the worst fight we've ever been in,
1528
01:26:59,916 --> 01:27:03,291
but instead of just making your point
and saying it's not about you,
1529
01:27:03,375 --> 01:27:04,958
it's an amalgamation of people,
1530
01:27:05,041 --> 01:27:08,125
you gotta fucking revel in it.
You gotta twist the knife
1531
01:27:08,208 --> 01:27:13,291
and put images in my head that you and I
both know will never fucking leave me.
1532
01:27:13,375 --> 01:27:14,333
[Malcolm] What?
1533
01:27:15,291 --> 01:27:16,666
-Kiki.
-Oh!
1534
01:27:16,750 --> 01:27:17,583
Kiki.
1535
01:27:17,666 --> 01:27:20,000
-I was angry. What the fuck!
-From outside of St. Louis.
1536
01:27:20,083 --> 01:27:23,291
-A heart-shaped bathtub?
-I was angry.
1537
01:27:23,375 --> 01:27:25,583
You're a cheeseball. Ugh! Malcolm!
1538
01:27:25,666 --> 01:27:27,625
-Ew! Ew!
-[laughing]
1539
01:27:27,708 --> 01:27:28,875
Ugh!
1540
01:27:29,375 --> 01:27:33,291
You're a fucking moron, honestly.
You could've won without all that shit.
1541
01:27:33,375 --> 01:27:35,791
You could've won
with 20% of what you said,
1542
01:27:35,875 --> 01:27:38,708
but you cannot help yourself.
It is just who you are.
1543
01:27:38,791 --> 01:27:42,500
'Cause if I were ever fucked
in a penthouse suite of a Marriott,
1544
01:27:42,583 --> 01:27:45,000
in or around a heart-shaped bathtub,
1545
01:27:45,083 --> 01:27:49,250
I would never fucking
utter a word about it aloud.
1546
01:27:49,333 --> 01:27:51,708
I would never tell my friends about it,
1547
01:27:51,791 --> 01:27:53,875
I would never wield it
in a fight as a weapon.
1548
01:27:53,958 --> 01:27:55,791
You know why?
Because I know it would hurt me
1549
01:27:55,875 --> 01:27:57,541
way more than it would hurt you.
1550
01:27:58,916 --> 01:28:01,791
[sighing] And it's a bummer,
Malcolm, you know?
1551
01:28:02,333 --> 01:28:05,708
I really enjoyed having sex with you.
Up until about 15 minutes ago,
1552
01:28:05,791 --> 01:28:09,666
it was an aspect of our relationship
that I genuinely had no complaints about.
1553
01:28:11,750 --> 01:28:14,500
It was also my only remaining vice,
that and cigarettes.
1554
01:28:15,875 --> 01:28:19,500
But, well, lo and behold,
you had to take shit too far…
1555
01:28:19,583 --> 01:28:20,500
[Malcolm] Come on.
1556
01:28:20,583 --> 01:28:24,916
And obliterate any and all joy
there was to be found in fucking you.
1557
01:28:25,000 --> 01:28:27,875
The gloves were off, okay?
We were in a fight, like…
1558
01:28:27,958 --> 01:28:32,750
Oh, it didn't support your argument.
It just grossed me the fuck out.
1559
01:28:32,833 --> 01:28:36,916
It made me go,
"I cannot believe I have unprotected sex
1560
01:28:37,000 --> 01:28:40,875
with this nasty-ass,
grimy-dicked fuckin' brute,
1561
01:28:40,958 --> 01:28:44,750
a fuckin' animal,
a fuckin' barnyard animal."
1562
01:28:44,833 --> 01:28:47,125
-[chuckles]
-That's what you are. A fuckin' hog.
1563
01:28:47,208 --> 01:28:50,750
You are a shit-where-you-eat hog.
Hog of a human being.
1564
01:28:50,833 --> 01:28:53,750
-[gags]
-[Malcolm laughing]
1565
01:28:53,833 --> 01:28:55,541
Yeah, you fuckin' think it's funny.
1566
01:28:55,625 --> 01:28:57,833
-You're being dramatic.
-I'm not being dramatic.
1567
01:28:57,916 --> 01:29:00,875
You think 'cause we had a common enemy
in Karen from the LA Times,
1568
01:29:00,958 --> 01:29:02,916
all shit is sweet. We good now?
1569
01:29:03,625 --> 01:29:05,791
Think again, motherfucker. We ain't good.
1570
01:29:05,875 --> 01:29:07,041
-[chuckles]
-[Malcolm laughing]
1571
01:29:07,125 --> 01:29:09,708
She's my spiritual sister. I mean that.
1572
01:29:09,791 --> 01:29:11,375
We're both seeking refuge
1573
01:29:11,458 --> 01:29:14,541
from your assaultive,
battering ram of a fucking personality.
1574
01:29:14,625 --> 01:29:18,250
Because of your limitations
as a partner, and a filmmaker,
1575
01:29:18,333 --> 01:29:20,333
we are both ducking for cover.
1576
01:29:20,833 --> 01:29:24,750
We may not have a lot in common,
but sis and I are in the fucking foxhole.
1577
01:29:24,833 --> 01:29:27,083
Oh, you are
the last person to talk, Marie.
1578
01:29:27,166 --> 01:29:29,875
You have fucked,
dated some of the wildest,
1579
01:29:29,958 --> 01:29:32,833
strangest human beings
that ever walked this planet Earth.
1580
01:29:32,916 --> 01:29:36,833
You have, one, no fucking standards,
which is a red flag.
1581
01:29:36,916 --> 01:29:39,833
Two, no fucking type,
which is also a red flag.
1582
01:29:39,916 --> 01:29:41,291
And three, no discretion.
1583
01:29:41,375 --> 01:29:43,958
Which means everyone who knows you,
knows you're a red flag
1584
01:29:44,041 --> 01:29:45,916
and talks about you're a red fucking flag.
1585
01:29:46,000 --> 01:29:47,833
Well, Malcolm, here's the difference.
1586
01:29:47,916 --> 01:29:53,458
I'm not lugging my balls around this house
bragging about the places they've been.
1587
01:29:54,333 --> 01:29:55,666
I don't need to know the details.
1588
01:29:55,750 --> 01:29:59,958
I don't need to know all the…
the moves and the steps
1589
01:30:00,041 --> 01:30:03,166
and the places that brought you
to my doorstep. You're here.
1590
01:30:04,791 --> 01:30:07,416
I loved you unconditionally. Why?
1591
01:30:08,625 --> 01:30:10,833
Because I value mystery.
1592
01:30:11,500 --> 01:30:14,875
The unknown. It's what supports
the tension of a relationship
1593
01:30:14,958 --> 01:30:18,291
and forces us to be the best version
of ourselves. The what-if factor.
1594
01:30:18,916 --> 01:30:22,333
What if there's someone
who loved him better?
1595
01:30:23,958 --> 01:30:26,291
Who was smarter, nicer.
1596
01:30:26,375 --> 01:30:29,291
Woke him up every day
with breakfast and a blowjob.
1597
01:30:30,583 --> 01:30:33,041
What if I'm not
the best girlfriend he's ever had?
1598
01:30:33,833 --> 01:30:36,041
What if he dreams of someone else?
1599
01:30:36,125 --> 01:30:39,458
Better conversations,
a girl with hips and an actual ass
1600
01:30:39,541 --> 01:30:42,625
instead of this string bean body?
1601
01:30:42,708 --> 01:30:45,500
Look, I know a little bit about your type.
1602
01:30:45,583 --> 01:30:49,458
Not so much that I'm paralyzed
with insecurity and doubt.
1603
01:30:50,875 --> 01:30:53,208
So that every single day when I get up,
1604
01:30:54,041 --> 01:30:57,041
and I talk to you,
and I wear this fancy fuckin' dress,
1605
01:30:57,125 --> 01:30:58,708
and I hold your hand,
1606
01:30:58,791 --> 01:31:02,708
I'm trying to be the best girlfriend
you have ever had.
1607
01:31:04,625 --> 01:31:07,625
So, when you tell me
that who I'm up against is Kiki…
1608
01:31:07,708 --> 01:31:10,708
-Here we go with the bullshit. Here we go.
-…from St. Louis,
1609
01:31:10,791 --> 01:31:15,041
in a heart-shaped bathtub,
it makes me give a lot less of a fuck.
1610
01:31:15,125 --> 01:31:16,750
You gotta bring up all the shit.
1611
01:31:16,833 --> 01:31:19,666
I don't know where you're going,
but I'm not done.
1612
01:31:21,250 --> 01:31:23,750
I'm not even fucking close to being done.
1613
01:31:25,041 --> 01:31:26,625
[Malcolm sighs]
1614
01:31:26,708 --> 01:31:30,333
But what it also makes me realize,
the reason you don't get jealous
1615
01:31:30,416 --> 01:31:33,041
is because you don't
value that mystery, do you?
1616
01:31:33,625 --> 01:31:35,125
The reason you don't value it,
1617
01:31:35,958 --> 01:31:39,000
the reason why you never wonder
if you're the best fuck I've ever had,
1618
01:31:39,083 --> 01:31:41,666
or the most talented person
I've ever been with,
1619
01:31:41,750 --> 01:31:43,791
or the kindest, or the smartest,
1620
01:31:44,500 --> 01:31:46,458
it's because it is inconceivable to you
1621
01:31:46,541 --> 01:31:50,291
that there is anybody on this planet
that is more interesting than you are.
1622
01:31:51,208 --> 01:31:52,166
[clicks tongue]
1623
01:31:52,250 --> 01:31:56,416
Your lack of curiosity is merely
an extension of your narcissism,
1624
01:31:56,500 --> 01:31:59,791
your megalomania,
your egotistical view of the world.
1625
01:32:00,666 --> 01:32:02,250
As a result of never doubting yourself,
1626
01:32:02,333 --> 01:32:07,208
you never stopped to ask yourself,
"How can I be a better partner?"
1627
01:32:11,666 --> 01:32:15,000
You're good. You are set.
1628
01:32:16,541 --> 01:32:20,041
The man I'm looking at right now
is as good as he's gonna get.
1629
01:32:24,166 --> 01:32:25,708
You yelling at me in a bathtub
1630
01:32:25,791 --> 01:32:28,333
about how you're
gonna snap me like a twig,
1631
01:32:29,208 --> 01:32:32,916
is the best and worst of who
you will be in this relationship.
1632
01:32:37,625 --> 01:32:40,625
And that's why you can forget
to thank me in your speech.
1633
01:32:42,458 --> 01:32:46,458
Because you're not afraid that I'm gonna
come home and go… [inhales deeply]
1634
01:32:46,583 --> 01:32:50,791
"You know what? You lost me tonight.
Fuck this shit. I am out."
1635
01:32:53,500 --> 01:32:57,875
But if you steamroll every single person
in your midst, day in and day out,
1636
01:32:57,958 --> 01:33:02,458
you are going to end up living
in a fictional fucking reality.
1637
01:33:05,583 --> 01:33:06,666
Look at me.
1638
01:33:09,833 --> 01:33:11,750
I'm the last person standing.
1639
01:33:13,125 --> 01:33:18,875
I'm the last person to look at you and go,
"You know what? Up your fucking game."
1640
01:33:19,500 --> 01:33:21,541
"If not for me, then for your work."
1641
01:33:23,791 --> 01:33:27,458
Malcolm, if this is a movie,
you hold on to me for dear fucking life.
1642
01:33:29,000 --> 01:33:31,250
Because that's who
we've been for one another.
1643
01:33:31,958 --> 01:33:36,333
That's who you've been for me
and I've been for you from the day we met.
1644
01:33:38,416 --> 01:33:42,250
From the day I overdosed in that market,
from the day you drove me to rehab.
1645
01:33:42,833 --> 01:33:44,750
From the first day I read your script
1646
01:33:44,833 --> 01:33:48,958
about me, about us,
about our relationship.
1647
01:33:50,666 --> 01:33:53,333
About how drugs
were destroying my ability to love you
1648
01:33:53,416 --> 01:33:55,375
and your ability to love me.
1649
01:34:02,541 --> 01:34:05,791
All I wanted tonight
was a "thank you," Malcolm. That is it.
1650
01:34:07,500 --> 01:34:08,500
That's all.
1651
01:34:11,000 --> 01:34:14,125
"Thank you, Marie.
Thank you for loving me."
1652
01:34:14,958 --> 01:34:18,375
"Thank you for making my life better,
for getting your life together."
1653
01:34:19,000 --> 01:34:22,833
"Thank you for watching 100 cuts
and reading 100 fucking drafts."
1654
01:34:22,916 --> 01:34:26,333
"Thank you for your notes,
your experience, your patience,
1655
01:34:26,416 --> 01:34:30,625
your authen-fucking-ticity
you bring to this film. Thank you."
1656
01:34:32,375 --> 01:34:35,500
"Thank you for being a drug addict.
Thank you for being clean."
1657
01:34:36,250 --> 01:34:40,125
"Thank you for dumb shit,
like buying toilet paper and milk
1658
01:34:40,208 --> 01:34:43,291
and organizing
the shit with the movers. Thank you."
1659
01:34:43,375 --> 01:34:45,541
"Thank you for doing
the shit I don't wanna think about."
1660
01:34:45,625 --> 01:34:48,666
"Thank you for making me coffee.
Thank you for making me smile."
1661
01:34:49,416 --> 01:34:52,708
"Thank you for the good sex
and the cuddles."
1662
01:34:53,875 --> 01:34:54,916
[Malcolm sniffs]
1663
01:34:56,333 --> 01:34:59,875
"Thank you for doing the laundry
and picking out my suit tonight
1664
01:34:59,958 --> 01:35:03,083
and making my ungrateful ass
some mac and cheese
1665
01:35:03,166 --> 01:35:05,416
after I forgot to fuckin' thank you."
1666
01:35:11,750 --> 01:35:14,666
"Thank you for the mistakes you've made…
1667
01:35:18,500 --> 01:35:21,041
for the charm you bring,
the life you bring."
1668
01:35:21,125 --> 01:35:22,791
"Thank you for loving me."
1669
01:35:25,166 --> 01:35:29,166
"Thank you for getting over this,
for moving forward, for being you."
1670
01:35:30,958 --> 01:35:33,875
"Thank you for all the shit
I forget to thank you for…
1671
01:35:35,041 --> 01:35:38,916
and thank you for looking
so goddamn sexy in that dress tonight."
1672
01:35:43,708 --> 01:35:45,083
"You make me look good."
1673
01:35:46,375 --> 01:35:48,083
"You make me a better person."
1674
01:35:53,041 --> 01:35:54,583
"Thank you for understanding
1675
01:35:55,333 --> 01:35:58,041
that I'm not always great
at expressing how I feel
1676
01:35:58,791 --> 01:36:01,458
and it comes out in my work
more than in real life."
1677
01:36:03,166 --> 01:36:04,458
"Thank you because…
1678
01:36:07,708 --> 01:36:11,583
I know it doesn't always feel good,
so I hope you can live with that."
1679
01:36:16,291 --> 01:36:18,166
[voice breaking] "Thank you."
1680
01:36:18,250 --> 01:36:20,500
"I know I'm emotionally obtuse sometimes,
1681
01:36:20,583 --> 01:36:23,041
but I'm grateful
you don't hold it against me."
1682
01:36:24,166 --> 01:36:25,166
"Thank you…
1683
01:36:27,416 --> 01:36:29,041
for assuming the best."
1684
01:36:31,833 --> 01:36:35,958
"I love you, Marie.
I'll always love you, my Marie."
1685
01:36:37,625 --> 01:36:38,625
"Thank you."
1686
01:36:40,333 --> 01:36:43,083
"From the bottom of my heart, thank you."
1687
01:36:52,375 --> 01:36:53,750
I love you, Marie.
1688
01:37:03,291 --> 01:37:05,041
[jazz music playing]
1689
01:37:15,333 --> 01:37:17,458
[slow jazz music playing]
1690
01:40:00,708 --> 01:40:02,041
[Malcolm sighs]
1691
01:40:06,791 --> 01:40:08,041
I'm sorry.
1692
01:40:18,125 --> 01:40:19,291
Thank you.
1693
01:40:21,458 --> 01:40:22,875
[Marie] You're welcome.
1694
01:40:30,958 --> 01:40:33,125
-[birds chirping]
-[sighs softly]
1695
01:40:35,208 --> 01:40:36,208
[grunts]
1696
01:40:40,666 --> 01:40:41,666
[grunts]
1697
01:40:46,916 --> 01:40:47,958
Marie?
1698
01:40:51,458 --> 01:40:52,875
[sighs]
1699
01:40:53,583 --> 01:40:54,666
Marie?
1700
01:40:59,500 --> 01:41:00,750
[grunts]
1701
01:41:08,750 --> 01:41:09,625
[sighs]
1702
01:41:20,541 --> 01:41:21,625
Marie!
1703
01:41:37,791 --> 01:41:39,291
-[birds chirping]
-Marie!
1704
01:42:09,541 --> 01:42:11,875
["Liberation"
by OutKast ft. Cee-Lo playing]
1705
01:42:21,875 --> 01:42:23,833
♪ And there's a, and there's a ♪
1706
01:42:23,916 --> 01:42:27,833
♪ And there's a
And there's a fine line ♪
1707
01:42:27,916 --> 01:42:30,541
♪ Too late, but baby, I'm on it ♪
1708
01:42:30,625 --> 01:42:32,375
♪ Ya, yeah, yeah ♪
1709
01:42:32,458 --> 01:42:34,208
♪ Yo, yo, uh-huh ♪
1710
01:42:34,291 --> 01:42:38,208
♪ There's a fine line
Between love and hate, you see ♪
1711
01:42:38,291 --> 01:42:42,458
♪ Came way too late but, baby, I'm on it ♪
1712
01:42:46,541 --> 01:42:50,458
♪ And there's a fine line
Between love and hate, you see ♪
1713
01:42:50,541 --> 01:42:54,833
♪ Came way too late but, baby, I'm on it ♪
1714
01:42:59,000 --> 01:43:02,708
♪ Can't worry 'bout
What a nigga think, now see ♪
1715
01:43:02,791 --> 01:43:07,166
♪ That's liberation and, baby, I want it ♪
1716
01:43:11,125 --> 01:43:14,791
♪ Can't worry 'bout
What another nigga think ♪
1717
01:43:14,875 --> 01:43:19,041
♪ Now that's liberation
And, baby, I want it ♪
1718
01:43:20,416 --> 01:43:22,958
♪ Lemme hear it, lemme hear it
Lemme though, lemme hear it ♪
1719
01:43:23,041 --> 01:43:26,916
♪ How many times
I sit back and contemplate? ♪
1720
01:43:27,000 --> 01:43:31,250
♪ I'm fresh off the dank
But I'm tellin' my story ♪
1721
01:43:35,375 --> 01:43:39,000
♪ My relationship with my folks
Is give-and-take ♪
1722
01:43:39,083 --> 01:43:43,458
♪ And I done took so much
Now give me my glory ♪
1723
01:43:47,666 --> 01:43:51,250
♪ To have a choice to be
Who you wants to be ♪
1724
01:43:51,333 --> 01:43:55,791
♪ It's left up-a to me
And my momma n'em told me ♪
1725
01:43:56,791 --> 01:43:57,958
♪ Yes, she did ♪
1726
01:43:59,375 --> 01:44:03,166
♪ I say, to have a choice to be
Who you wants to be ♪
1727
01:44:03,250 --> 01:44:08,166
♪ It's left up-a to me
And my momma n'em told me ♪
1728
01:44:08,250 --> 01:44:11,208
♪ No, no, no ♪
1729
01:44:12,500 --> 01:44:15,083
♪ Oh, Lord, I'm so tired, I'm so tired ♪
1730
01:44:15,166 --> 01:44:19,416
♪ My feet feel like I walked
Most of the road on my own ♪
1731
01:44:20,333 --> 01:44:22,750
♪ All on my own ♪
1732
01:44:25,166 --> 01:44:29,000
♪ We alive but we ain't livin'
That's why I'm givin' until it's gone ♪
1733
01:44:29,083 --> 01:44:30,875
♪ 'Cause I don't wanna be alone ♪
1734
01:44:30,958 --> 01:44:32,291
♪ I don't wanna be alone ♪
1735
01:44:32,375 --> 01:44:33,875
♪ I don't wanna be alone ♪
1736
01:44:33,958 --> 01:44:35,916
-♪ Yeah ♪
-♪ No, no, no ♪
1737
01:44:36,000 --> 01:44:39,958
♪ If anything I can say to help you find
Believe we could fly ♪
1738
01:44:41,208 --> 01:44:44,916
♪ But I can feel it in the wind
Beginning or the end ♪
1739
01:44:45,000 --> 01:44:49,041
♪ But people, keep your head to the sky ♪
1740
01:44:49,125 --> 01:44:51,916
♪ Shake that load off
Shake that load off ♪
1741
01:44:52,000 --> 01:44:54,916
♪ Shake that load off
Shake that load off ♪
1742
01:44:55,000 --> 01:44:58,000
♪ Shake that load off
Shake that load off ♪
1743
01:44:58,083 --> 01:45:01,000
♪ Shake that load off
Shake that load off ♪
1744
01:45:01,083 --> 01:45:04,041
♪ Shake that load off
Shake that load off ♪
1745
01:45:04,125 --> 01:45:07,208
♪ Shake that load off
Shake that load off ♪
1746
01:45:07,291 --> 01:45:10,166
♪ Shake that load off
Shake that load off ♪
1747
01:45:10,250 --> 01:45:13,250
♪ Shake that load off
Shake that load off ♪
1748
01:45:13,333 --> 01:45:16,291
♪ Shake that load off
Shake that load off ♪
1749
01:45:16,375 --> 01:45:19,125
♪ Shake that load off
Shake that load off ♪
1750
01:45:19,208 --> 01:45:22,291
♪ Shake that load off
Shake that load off ♪
1751
01:45:22,375 --> 01:45:25,250
♪ Shake that load off
Shake that load off ♪